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fefairys · 1 year ago

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now ive got quadrants on the brain specifically kismesissitude because i see the general attitude towards "do you use hs quadrants to label ur irl relationships?" as "i have a moirail/understand having a moirail but the black quadrants just dont work for humans, theyre for a fictional species" or "i have a kismesis but its like a joke" and im like lol. lmao even.

i guess it is my troll kinnie ass but the most common crush i get on people is a pitch one lmao.. my relationship with my fiance started as a kismesissitude and slowly morphed into kismoirailsprits over time, but like, we were a healthy kismesissitude and we still are partly kismesisses! idk if yall saw that gay little interaction we just had (scroll a few posts down on my blog lmao) but like we are still antagonistic towards each other a lot and our relationship started with us hating each other and was built around how much we annoyed each other.

its a very specific feeling and emotion to me! because i have dated people and NOT felt that way, too, so its not like "oh but everyones playfully antagonistic to their partners sometimes!" no no no this is so different. because when i was with my last girlfriend, yeah we would tease each other sometimes, but it wasn't the same feeling as Pitch Romance to me. it's a whole different feeling.

i very often get crushes on people where they annoy the hell out of me. i find them attractive, and even charming at times, but most of the time when they talk im like oh my god you are the most annoying person in the world. i want to make out with you about it. pitch feelings are about being ANGRY that you like you someone so much, to me. like "why the fuck do i like you so much when you're always getting on my nerves. why do i want to be around you all the time even though everything you say pisses me off. why do i want to kiss you." lmao. thats my experience at least! and also wanting to annoy them and rile them up in return. thats how i felt about juice at the start of our relationship, and i still have those feelings towards it now, though i also have other feelings like just plain and simple genuine Love and Affection without the annoyance as well. it fluctuates. depends on if we are annoying each other at the moment or not haha

i've told ppl this and they've been like "oh so its like tsundere" and im just like. I GUESS????? but to me it is so different like i feel like tsundere is when you like someone but cant admit it so you act like you hate them (maybe you even believe that you hate them, but truly, you like them) whereas kismesissitude is truly hating someone, finding them annoying and infuriating, but in an exhilarating way. i hate you and you hate me and its fun to annoy each other and watch each other get all mad.

the quadrant i'd personally never feel the need to be part of is the ashen one because its main purpose is to prevent cheating on ur kismesis and its like. well im polyamorous so. lol. i could see it being used in human relationships if its like, someone who functions as your moirail and helps mediate in arguments you have with other people where you/the other person are getting too angry with each other? i guess?

and also like. treating a moiraillegience as monogamous and something you can "cheat on" someone else with is definitely not the way to go imo. i mean im in a pale throuple rn. we call each other moirails because we trust each other more than anyone with talking about our feelings and stuff! but back in the day i remember people literally being like "he said *paps you* to my moirail what the fuck thats MY moirai only *i* can pap them!l" and its like alright calm down...

#personal #wow i sure can talk #this probably has so many typos i cant reread it rn i have to go pick up juice from his gay job

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zy-murge · 2 years ago

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HELLOOOO 2BHANK HEADCSNONS HEART EMOJI :]

the ideas that have been in my small little brain

even when others are nice to hank he finds it very empty which is why in project nexus he doesn't really connect with others however his relationship with 2bdamned is more than "He's nice to me" its the fact 2bdamned is actually displaying more than words, because he realizes that 2bdamned is doing more than he has to in any capacity. they share a goal of defeating - or atleast subduing - the AAHW. 2bdamned's assistance in providing high level weaponry and teammates should be enough, but he's giving MORE. after hanks first death on a mission after beginning to work with 2bdamned, he finds it strange that 2bdamned is the one to help revive him but that gives them time to spend together. He finds it even more strange that this is his first encounter with another person that includes physical touch but no harm, he doesn't know what to make of that. Eventually its not just when hank dies. It starts happening enough that 2bdamned says he has to come by so often he might as well start living there, but hank takes that as a serious offer and obliges. Both of them are surprised, but it happens anyway.

I think that's the point at which they start to know each other well enough to advance this to a relationship past "We just need to get by" to "I'm doing all these super nice things just as a favor" which are definitely not just favors, they spend more and more time together as a result. Hands lingering over stitched wounds 'just to check one more time', small talk during treatment, i think around that point is when hank opens up to doc a lot more. I like to think they do stuff outside of work or simply "Living" too, having a drink together and such. I think it's obvious they want to keep it "strictly business" but it's been past that point ever since they started living together, and WELL past ever since they started becoming more ... casual to each other.

I don't truly know to what extent hank feels for 2bdamned, but I think he kind of struggles with the fact he hasn't killed him yet when there's reasons he COULD and he SHOULD, but i supposed it's something in the back of his mind that he can when it comes to that point. The better question is why hasn't it? How did it get to THIS point where it's become past the work? Why would he do something like be open to someone like HIM? Why hasn't he done anything about it?

2bdamned's own emotions are pretty clear to him but he's in denial saying it's about the research or the practicality or some other bullshit not willing to admit its spending more resources than it's worth to keep the fucker alive, especially if hank doesn't exactly need 2bdamned's talents to revive himself. It's needless use of vital things like giving up privacy to live with the Scariest Guy In All Of Nevada or using reviving when Hank doesn't even need any of the fancy tech in the first place to be revived. It's the same question of "How's it come to this?"

i need them to be a little more fucked up emotionally than just snuggle buddies at movie night. i mentioned this elsewhere but their relationship is kind of like. They both think theyre the guy taking care of the cat, but they're both the cat. sorry less of a headcanons list and more a dump of some headcanon emotional garbage but here's some stuff i think theyd do and be gay about

drinking together (mentioned) and getting a bit more closer emotionally, both of them talk about their jobs and what they do what they do but i also think doc would mention something about being ex-aahw and being like "FUCK!!NO HE'LL HATE ME NOW!!" and hanks like "AHHAHAHA see it's just better to hang with me" and at that point they became besties (CODE FOR hot gay lovers)

also after that doc just begins complaining so so much about the AAHW especially the working conditions

THREE WORDS. HOMO!! EROTIC!! SURGERY!!! you all know it by now yes the "oh so you're in my guts. okay. buy me dinner first" but like you know. i think people should focus more on the touching aspect and i never really see it enough... gimme some tracing over the stomach and hank being all fucked up over how this is the only time of the day someone gets to hold him without it following his head being bashed in. I do think it's a little funny thinking about this though, i think 2bdamned definitely forgets all the time he's working with a LIVING body not a dead one so he just kinda sticks his hand in there sometimes and when hanks like "AUGHTR" he's like oopsie ^_^ forgot

hank tried to kiss doc once after surgery and he had to play it off as being delirious and then stomped out really all mad at himself

they have to sleep in the same bed or it's that doc is sleeping in a fucking chair but the problem is all of his chairs are stools. they HAVE to sleep in the same bed man. there's only one bed trope but contest to see how long they can last before making out. do this in real life with your best friend

also that doc is the one that cooks for both of them and it is kind of shit food but compared to the fact hank cant fucking cook its like a miracle hank gets anything other than Cheese Pizza in his system

you remember that "Pretty Please" note doc wrote to hank to tell him to Pretty Please Destroy The Only City In Our Fucking World i think he talks really jokingly to hank, but doesnt do it because hank doesn't really pick up on it being a joke. usually does try to remain serious and normal for most conversations

if i think of any more i'll psot them later but it is 12:30 am !!! i like them a lot. i like them a lot

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cyberdragoninfinity · 2 years ago

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zane for the character ask thing?

YESSSS

favorite thing about them: waaahhhh so much. god i love zane. his character arc is so so good. His dub voice is I think my single favorite dub voice so far ( a high honor; I love a lot of the dub voices!!), I love how he can go from mumbling to a snarling roar in an instant. I love his Hell Kaiser design, I love the way the show storytells through his deck and how he plays it. He's also in my Single Favorite GX Duel so I think that counts as a Favorite Thing.

least favorite thing about them: genuinely trying to think about. what my least favorite thing about him is. hm. I do adore dub zane but it's a shame a lot of his relationship with respect re: dueling and himself and others got cut in order to play up a little bit of a "edgy mid-2000's tough guy bully older brother" characterization with him in the dub; the respect thing is such an important part of his character and it sucks to lose that!!

favorite line: sorry theyre all dub lines but "CYBER END DRAGON.... IT'S BEEN REAL" *EXPLOSION* still makes me go absolutely insane and "he's got one" re: jaden desperately telling him that he cant go, that syrus needs a big brother, literally makes me start crying. Also special shoutout to the fact that the dub specifically had zane tell syrus he loves him on two separate occasions!!!! That's so dear to me. Sub wise I do also love "I don't need an assistant" re: yubel being like 'i'll help you down on your way to hell.' he just goes hard.

brOTP: his bond with syrus is my single favorite yugioh siblings dynamic and every time i think about them im just like ;__; aauuaaghhhwwaahhhh......could talk about them. for ages. I also love his friendship with Jaden and Alexis!!! Zane Truesdale has Three Whole Little Siblings!!!!!!!!! I know and see the truth!!!!!

OTP: you know i gotta be on that idolship babeeeyyy!!! I did not expect a gx ship to weasel into my brain but he and Atticus just make me so soft. Why don't you come with me into the light and maybe you'll fucking calm down. love CAN bloom between a NIN fan and a Jimmy Buffett fan.

nOTP: never could vibe much with zane/jaden as a ship????? idk. thats his little brother to me. also again if you ship him with syrus im biting you. and im biting you. and im biting you. and im killing you.

random headcanon: zane alan truesdale my autistic aromantic gay nonbinary competitive pokemon player........... he is transneutral to me. his ideal gender is a 2 1/2 by 2 1/2 by 2 1/2 floating steel cube with the hell kaiser jacket on it. He listens to Tool. He'd go to raves and stand again the wall with his arms crossed. His special interest as a small child was printers. He loves old computers. His favorite Pokemon is Dialga. i could go on.

unpopular opinion: HE'S NOT. EVIL?!?!?! PEOPLE ALWAYS ARE LIKE "my sexy evil husbando >:3" WITH HELL KAISER AND IT'S LIKE. HES NOT EVEN EVIL!!!! HES JUST MENTALLY ILL!!!! HES HAVING A MANIC EPISODE SOMEONE HELP HIM. also. his 'death' is better in the dub than in the sub imo (it's the telling sy he loves him. for me.) <3

song i associate with them: Heel Turn 2 by tmg is the Zane Song Ever for me but also Bleed Out off their latest album.... "I will go down punching, but I will go down/ and my corner men won't bring me back around...."

favorite picture of them: sorry it's not an in-show screenshot but it's always going to be this pic from tag force

i cannot fucking believe this is a real picture of ryozane marufujitruesdale from a Real PSP Game that Really came out and that you can play but it IS. emulate Tag Force 3. my final message.

#ygo posting #THANK U ANON IM ALWAYS IN A MOOD TO TALK ABOUT ZANE. MY BELOVED OLD DESKTOP COMPUTER OF A GUY #asks #anonymous

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ashleymint · 3 months ago

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HELP ME ok

who is and is not jack’s dad ideally theyre all jacks dad but I see sam as like.... dad-uncle mix

which member of tfw suffered most I know sam was in the cage for 150 years or some shit but I feel like dean's 40 year stretch was worse so in short idk give them all a hug + therapy

is cas gay or bi he's deansexual but yeah gay

destiel. who was worse to the other dean's worse

should dean have lived in the finale and moved on with someone else or stuck to killing himself? I reject this false dichotomy

is the night we met a bad song? (i only ever saw this take once and i blocked the person i just wanted to have a laugh over this thought) no I really like it I just wish they didn't use it for 13 reasons why

emma/any other one off kid I can't even

fine dean can have romantic relationships with other people but we draw the line at castiel having one unbelievable discourse meant for pea brains and my brain is at least the size of a walnut

would they ever actually get married Probably not they're both weirdos with baggage and they only care about their love being real to each other

finale we got aka ambiguous destiel vs confirmed no destiel but we get cas back I'm not trading the confession for anything other than a full frontal sex scene

would dean hate that fucking dog ? I don't even remember seeing this discourse

fights from 2021/22 spnblr i think we should rehash just for drama and hater sake:

who is and is not jack’s dad

which member of tfw suffered most

is cas gay or bi

destiel. who was worse to the other

should dean have lived in the finale and moved on with someone else or stuck to killing himself?

is the night we met a bad song? (i only ever saw this take once and i blocked the person i just wanted to have a laugh over this thought)

emma/any other one off kid

fine dean can have romantic relationships with other people but we draw the line at castiel having one

would they ever actually get married

finale we got aka ambiguous destiel vs confirmed no destiel but we get cas back

would dean hate that fucking dog ?

#supernatural #posting this for personal fun

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spicycowboyhole · 1 year ago

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posting because the psychicatrist decided to get sick when im having a crisis?:

idk where to start tbh LLOOL but i think im NOT DOING WELL. like on the outside evertytthings fine like nothings changed at all but i think im going insane. i think ive just realized how i have like 0 emotional suppoport system and whenever someone says something genuinely nice about me it makes me feel emotional because like i had family visiting this past week and my mom and my cousins tarted talking about college and my mom was saying how i wasted money going to college. i said that i didnt feel like i wasted my money becasue i have a degree now and i could always go back and get my bachelors but she said "BUT WHAT ARE U DOING EITH IT" and it just pissed me off because i feel like shes negating my accomplishment.

what made me cry last night was when i was messaging this guy and he was telling me about how he had class in the morning and we started talking about college. i told him how i was thinking about going back to school in january and he said i should.

for some reason i feel like getting my degree in psych would be cringe or a waste of time/money because my friend told me everyone she knows who did thinks so, like its some useless art degree. but when i asked this guy if it was cringe he said "so cringe... imagine having ambitions" im fucking stupid and didnt notice the sarcasm and i said "might as well start playing bucket drums on the street ig" because idk i guess i imagine getting a degree in psych would be just as dumb as someone trying to make it in the music business by playing on the street or something. he said "everyone thats going to college has ambitions. So in that case we all need to go play street bongos" and that perspective completely exploded my brain and i started crying LMAO because i guess going to college is a risk no matter what and u just have to believe in urself or some gay shit. it made me think of a taz cameo where he told someone that "nobody is gonna support your journey no matter how much they love you until youve proved to them that your journey was worth supporting" and that made me sad kinda because like i said i dont think i really have any kind of support from family rn and i kinda just have myself but i have like 0 confidence and negative self esteem and my family just being dissapointed in me and saying negative stuff really doesnt help. so i guess the moral of the story is that i have to trust and believe in myself because no one else will! really sucks i think. yeah but i only just started talking to that guy like YESTERDAY and im sure he prob felt like what he told me was nothing but it really did impact me and pulled the last tiny string that was emotionally holding me together. i apologized for being cynical and i told him i appreciated his words because i was kinda responding in a joking way that might have come off as rude i think? the silly bandaid just isnt working so good no more.

but fr i think while my anxiety is a lot better i think my depression is getting worse just due to my circumstances. like can u believe i almost went to the movies with some stranger internet guy just because i didnt want to be with my family?? i think somethings making me more impulsive than usual. i was going to buy cigarettes today and the only reason i didnt was because my appointment got canceled.

some other things tho i kinda didnt like having my cousins come visit because i just feel so inferior to them. like they look better and are just doing kinda all the stuff i should be doing yk? makes me feel shitty AND i feel like my mom just kinda infantilizes me like my parents treat me like nemo and i just cant do some things for some reason. its just so frustrating like my parents make me upset and i just want to move far away from them but also like they dont encourage me to do stuff on my own and when i try theyre like how are you even gonna do that you cant do that you have a bad fin like HELLO HELP ME FIX MY FIN THEN? I WOULDNT HAVE A BAD FIN IF YOU DIDNT HELP PREVENT IT IN THE FIRST PLACE LOL BUT IT JUST SUCKS THAT I HAVE TO DO ALL THIS BY MYSELF

i just dont want to be living here in like 5 years. thats a goal huh? if i had been asked where i wanted to be in 5 yrs when i was in high school id be like idk but i somehow managed to grow a goal somehow just out of misery i guess. and the steps are so cleaar in my head but then the voices tell me i cant do it because im scared BUT thats the point of life or something right??

jesus chhrososttt in reality nothing is really changing irl but im having some sort of crisis rn

ive even been trying to talk to boys LOL ive just been wanting some kind of escape from my life,, some independence, i want MY OWN LIFE that my mommy doesnt know everything about. i want to go to the movies with someone im not related to.

ok these paragraphes are all fucked up and i would fix it but i dont wanna go through and reread them

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endfght · 2 years ago

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🎲 x 6

grace baker & lilly jones: ok brain empty but,, grace's father was a notorious killer,, she goes on to become a journalist,,, theres gotta be something there right?? ive never seen hannibal but i know the general premise and i feel like?? some of the concept can be carried over here??? grace would be so interested to get into the mind of someone even remotely similar to her father since she has so many questions that she never thought she'd get any answers to.

lauren mallory & victoria: i get vampire!lauren when. lauren and victoria :handshake: wanting bella dead. anYWAY lauren is so.. Unhappy in forks and would jump at any chance to do something exciting, but most of all, she would jump at any chance to get the fuck outta town!!! she has a tendency to be A Lot but with a little bit of tough love and time she can be a good friend and ally!! i dont know if she'd have any kind of special ability as a vampire,,, but i still think they could work.

kirsty cotton & samantha carpenter: final girls that say fuck you to their monsters Need to stand together. even if kirsty's were actually from Hell and sam's were just people that didnt know how to just Let Shit Go, theyre both still survivors and Badass Bitches and i simply think that they could kick ass together. kirsty in my portrayal does eventually go on to become a social worker so maybe she'd worked with sam/tara before idkidk i just think that they could be really a neat duo.

robin craig & natalie pace: i watched through all of lost like,, a year or two ago but my memory of it isnt 100% past the first few seasons (but now i lowkey,,, wanna rewatch it). robin playing natalie in a film adaptation of the crash of oceanic flight 815. NO but actually... i would not mind throwing robin into lost at all. traveling for work and all of a sudden damn,, ur stuck on an island girlie!! i could definitely see the two of them forming some kind of alliance or pact or somETHING though and just,, Looking Out for one another early on,, working together later when things start to get crazy on the island.

kirby reed & cindy berman: summer camp counselor kirby reed at ur service 🫡 kirby being just enough of a bad influence in cindy's life<3 jill who?? cindy is kirby's best friend now. sorry i don't make the rules. maybe theyre counselors in the same cabin??? BUT ALSO,, cindy in scream?? friends with kirby, jill, and olivia??? them SURVIVING TOGETHER,,, i just,,, i think that they would be good friends and no matter what universe they were in they would Support one another's life journeys<3

van palmer & robin buckley: LESBIANS! LESBIANS!!!!!! throwing van into fear street can be done just as easily as throwing robin into yellowjackets imo. van as a counselor at nightwing and then an adult helping deena and the others in 94,, oR more practically,, van in 94, a Gay on the soccer team,, thrown into running for her life from possessed demon murder victims<3 robin in the Wilderness would change my life i think. @carnagebled.

#this HID in my drafts im so sorry #＆. inbox ‚ answered .#carnagebled #i hope this makes sense bc my brain is workin at 2% capacity rn #when i say ive never seen hannibal but i know the general concept i think i was lying but #also i have no idea

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hyenazzocinfodumpletsgo · 2 years ago

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Ima copy + paste a tonn of stuff onto this, becasue perfect thing to add anything i have rn about my lil guy to here

'chews on hoodies, strings, anything, has little teeth marks cus his little fangs and he doesnt realize he collects rocks and when he met the ninja he gave each of a lil rock that looked like em in some way isn't an official ninja an doesn't have a power yet, he's just a very silly kid (back story later cus i wanna write a whole fic of it) he helps clean and fix stuff on the bounty meets everyone at the after nadakahn incident thing happens he doesnt have a room at the start so he just crashed in a broom closet theres so much im just very excited becus the sillyyy'

'dudes only power (he doesn't know about it for a very long time, complicated story stuff i will expand later) he can shapeshift but only between his human form and animals. he really likes to take the form of raccoons and dogs, so like,,,, dogboy asher is so real he turns into a kinda big brown lab mix because it suits his personality and hes just goofy silly'

'asher gets stuck in different forms if he's to low on energy

like after a fight or just intense training hes so physically and mentally drained he can't undo it so he is just kinda stuck, even with basic forms he would normally not have an issue with

adds angstish OR comedic stuff to the plot for oc*

imagine him just being stuck as a cat

they just have a pet cat for like an hour on the bounty, hes just chilling, knocking glasses off of counter tops

and then poof

back to his human form all a sudden'

'adding onto my earlier thought: he gets stuck quite ofter when he first tries to use his power so the others kinda have to help him with stuff like getting to his room if he cant use doors, (like if he has paws as say a dog?) and get him food cus he cant get to it later wu sets up a backup stash of snacks for if he's stuck and cant get help but one of the first times he's stuck it just feels so wrong and scary he freaks out a lot He ends up having to spend the night with one of the others cus he's scared of everything, struglling to sleep or stay calm he eventually chills out and by the time he's awake hes back to its original human form most of the times especially at the start he has to keep doing that buut eventually grows more used to the feeling of being shifted he aslo has a hard time dealing with bigger/more complicated forms (say like a bear, really big animal) and it leaves him more exhausted so he has to be stuck a bit longer along with that same idea, the bigger the form, the worse injuries he already had get, and more can happen from the gain in size he has a stash of bandages on him whenever he leaves the bounty after awhile also small forms like sparrows and cats are his preffered forms, and sometimes he with just shift into them to fly around or take a break the others take that as an excuse to cuddle cat/dog form, cus fluffy lil guy (i therapy comes in fluffy animals/hj) also my guy can't swim very well, even shifted into aquatic creatures, so he avoids it and hangs out with kai if they go swimming'

'thinkin abt my silly shapeshifting dude,, asher in the movie would be sm hurt but also so silly hes so goofy, but man people don't like him at all. He hangs out mostly by himself but sometimes around the ninjas after they offered to let him crash at a lunch table with them. friendship is stored in giving someone an oreo as a token of aprecciation/hj

no but actually its like how animals give others that they like a rock or something similar he does closely relate to animals and picked up tons of characteristics off of them mainly crows and collecting/gifting shiny objects to people

He gives jay little pair of bracelets and some other shinyy trinkets he found on the ground as a present becus the silly and the ultimate silly being bsfs, or tbh bfs (me tryna actually do ships with ocs is so fuzzy brained, theyre all gay and silly, and hes to emotionally immature to ever work out in a relationship, barely does in friendships) he gave cole a cd he found at the 99 cent store across town because the art was pretty Nya constantly gets little screws and shiny pennies he finds zane didn't exactly get why asher does this, but still takes the random funny shaped rocks and pinecones kai gets a lot of silly knicknacks that asher shoves into his pockets when he is walking around lloyd recieves lots of rocks of the very specific kind, where part of the look green, as well as he found a green crystal peice and gave it to him hes just very silly he also gave wu a gold coin he found on the ground just as a way of trying to get out of cleaning once

He also carries a little bag around with him full of oreos and little plastic bags its how he stores the most shiny things he wants to gift the others, each of the bags have a really messily written name on them to corelate to each ninjas : p'

'asher calls pixal "pixie stix" after he tries them he has a lot of random nicknames for the others but that one is my favorite one rn'

there is so much more but thats all the stuff i have in one place atm,,

im so incrediably normal about him ok.

Hey. Hey you.

Yeah you.

Reblog this post with a ramble about your ninjago oc(s).

(If you want to ofc. No pressure /gen)

#ninjago oc #ninjago blog #ninjago headcanons #ninjago shitpost #asher!ninjago rants #Ninjago ocs #Ninjago oc #Ninjago #hes silly #i love him sm #this is my favorite thing in the universe if u cant tell rn

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surrender-souls · 3 years ago

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i could fix griffin mr invisible man

#it is my correct opinion that if kemp didn’t snitch him out and he had someone other than himself he would’ve gotten better #trust me isolation does some shit to your brain and i think thats like. a big part of his problem (though not fully it)#having someone there he wouldn’t have to hide from and would be able to talk to and just be known by would help #i think about those two like way too much… they live in my mind in a better world where kemp didnt snitch #and they can trust and care about eachother #cause griffin really did want to be partners with kemp and really seemed to like having someone be there (especially someone being kemp)#your invisible man is gay af!#yes im getting back into my old book interest yes im thinking about what if all these characters interacted and shit #beatrice rappaccini and griffin… im not sure if theyd get along well but they definitely have some similarities #i need to reread her story but i feel like theyd get along in an interesting way #theyre both isolated because of science bullshit but griffin did it to himself cause hes impulsive but beatrice was messed up by her dad #i speak #the invisible man #love to see a big interest coming back especially something i can put so much thought into #my characters now >:} theyre in the public domain anyways!

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ygio · 3 years ago

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i just think it would be extremely funny if tkb treated it like the jokers scars thing.

like - the first time it happens, its not exactly on purpose.

tkb is freshly back, after getting that redemption he deserved, and is working through his relationships with the people who knew him as someone different, someone angrier and more cruel. theyre getting to know the real him now, and its going well, or at least well enough. its a start.

but then at one point malik offhandedly asks him about how he got those cuts on his face, and a part of tkb - probably the same part that deeply, profoundly fears vulnerability - finds himself rendered unable to answer such a personal question. so, in the split-second that takes him to open his mouth, his brain has processed this information and quickly came up with the solution for the problem, called Lie Like A Dog.

“i was fishing,” he says, completely straight faced. “in the nile. and a shark bit me.”

“youre fucking with me,” malik tells him, with the expression of someone who is clearly unsure if the other is actually fucking with him.

“no, seriously. i leaned into the water too far and it just swooped out of water and went for my face. it was very scary.”

malik snorts, unimpressed. “okay, youre definitely fucking with me.”

“well yeah of course i am,” tkb retorts, shit eating grin and all.

the next time, its with ryou bakura. he was careless and got badly cut while carving one of his figurines, and tkb is naturally there to help him out. he knows how to patch up wounds, after all - he did that to himself all the time.

“even the one on your face?” bakura asks.

“yeah,” tkb responds automatically, touching his cheek. “it was pretty bad, but i got lucky.”

bakura raises his eyebrows, a natural curiosity kicking in. “really? what happened?”

and tkb wants to tell him, he really does, but that knee-jerk reaction shows its face again, too ingrained in him to be ignored.

“well, it was lucky i had all the supplies on hand,” he says, bullshitting like he made a career of it (which, really, at one point he did). “i was having an affair with a seamstress, and her husband found out, came at me while she was sucking my dick. but there were all these needles and threads around, so i stole some and used them for stitches.”

“stop lying.” bakura tells him, not even a little bit amused.

“im not!” tkb goes back to messing with bakuras wound, a little too forcefully. bakura doesnt even wince as he continues, voice flat.

“you werent fucking a seamstress, youre gay.”

and then eventually, it becomes a thing. whenever someone asks (or if they dont ask, and tkb is feeling like messing with someone in particular), they get a new, different version of How He Got These Scars.

he fell down a pyramid.

made out with an ancient lawnmower.

its a tattoo, actually - one of those that get carved into your body, like what malik has but voluntary, and the symbol means Your Mom.

etc.

and eventually, he becomes more comfortable with these people in his life - actually comfortable, enough to consider them close. for the first time in three thousand years, first time since he was a terrified five year old, hiding as he watched everyone he loved die, he has something like a family. the thought is dizzying.

he could tell them, he thinks at some point, and the realization doesnt fill him with dread. he could share this piece of information with his friends the same way he could share anything else, and nothing would change, their treatment of him wouldnt change.

being known would not make him any less safe.

but even as he becomes aware of this, he still cant stop lying about this, can he? its way too funny to just tell the truth at this point. hes committed to the bit.

#longish post ive been going through it #cracky headcanon? fic thing? idk what this is #gemshipping #citronshipping

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transfemlogan · 3 years ago

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Made my friend ( @evilneo ) guess Sanders Sides characters (+ Emile Picani & Remy/Sleep)! If it isn't obvious, I am "All Aboard" with the pokemon icon & ai is JohnWickLover1994.

(Note: my friend refers to Remus as a degoratory term ["fruit"] once)

Image descriptions are under cut (sorry, they're very long I thought it'd be best to put it under cut).

[ID: all images are screenshots of a discord conversation between user 'All Aboard! 🚄' and 'JohnWickLover1994'. User 'All Aboard! 🚄' is struggling to type and often misspells words.

Image 1: All Aboard! 🚄: here is the first one. (Image of Patton Sanders from Sanders Sides) Tell me who he is...

JohnWickLover1994: Oh uhm... Logan nerd trait.

All Aboard: NERD TRAIT

JohnWick: why is he dressed like that. Hang on one sec. (All caps) He dresses like the guy from that one dating sim (end caps) with the dilfs. Ok so. Logan. Nerd trait of uh logic. Or being a dweeb or whatever. (A later message) (all caps) the first one you showed me. Is he morality. (End caps)

All Aboard: (all caps) I'm not answering until the end (end caps)

JohnWick: (all caps) sorry off topic from this fruit (end caps) (edited onto the screenshot is the text "remus" underneath the word fruit.)

All Aboard: (caps) help (end caps)

JohnWick: (caps) he just looks like a goody two shoes bitch (end caps)

Image 2: All Aboard: whos this? (Image of Logan Sanders from Sanders Aides)

JohnWick: (caps) no that one is logic right? Brain badge! (End caps)

All Aboard: they're all logic /joke ok so then whats his name?

JohnWick: (caps) ok so (end caps) logan 2.

All Aboard: (keysmash) they're ALL named logan!

JohnWick: (caps) yeah! (End caps) whwhwhwhw... uh. His name that isn't logan. Roman? Is this roman.

All Aboard: sure! Next one.

John Wick: (caps) im wrong aren't i </3 (End caps)

Image 3: All Aboard: (image of Roman Sanders) whos this

JohnWick: (caps) oh that guy is roman isnt he fuck (end caps) he's got that general roman prick vibes . Idk ... uh um. Confidence? Cockyness? Strategy?

Image 4: All Aboard: (image of Virgil Sanders)

JohnWick: (all caps) is this one virgil

All Aboard: (keysmash) what gave it away

JohnWick: i fell in love with an emo girl~ /lyric

All Aboard: ok whats his trait.

JohnWick: sleep deprivation look at those (caps) eyebags. (End caps) someone give this young man a bed.

All Aboard: on it boss! Tucking him in rn

JohnWick: uh hm. Idk. Anxiety? Mental illness ambiguous.

Image 5: All Aboard: (2 images of Janus Sanders) he has a snake face! ^_^

JohnWick: (all caps) oh um. Janus. Deceit?

All Aboard: (all caps) fuck how do you know this one

Image 6 (conversation continued): JohnWick: two sides of his face to two faces to synonym for deceitful. Snake themed to calling someone a snake means theyre a deceitful person. Janus also has two faced associations i think?

All Aboard: fuck. I should have just let you seen one part of his face... /joke

JohnWick: bill cipher cosplayer bitch. Smacking his bowler hat off his head get some (caps) style man. (End caps) I could dress him better I think . If he was my househusband.

Image 7: WHO is this guy and his trait. (Image of Remus Sanders)

JohnWick: now this dude. Hm. Oh! Remus?

All Aboard: (caps) how'd you know?

JohnWick: I know Roman and Remus are twins and hes like. as flamboyant as the other guy in the opposite direction

All Aboard: (keysmash) this is true.

JohnWick: also the other guy was red+white and hes green+black so thats like opposites. Also trait is gay homo crimes.

Image 8: All Aboard: he is from multiple vines (image of Sleep from Thomas Sanders' short videos) and he represents something. It's like... Thomas does skits, I guess. He wears a thing that says what he is supposed to represent so I scribbled it out. He does not have a canon name, but everyone calls him a name and even Thomas does it sometimes. I am pretty sure.

JohnWick: idk. Uh. Calling him David.

All Aboard: (caps) david. (End caps) Do u want 2 guess what he represents. What. David. Represents

JohnWick: Instagram brand millennial cisgay who every queer person doesn't like

Image 8: All Aboard: (image of Emile Picani from Cartoon Therapy) Who is this. He has a first and last name, but no trait. He has a job you can guess his job.

JohnWick: Leslie Greenham and he's a librarian. He looks like a Leslie Greenham tbh (later message) (all caps) is he not a librarian?

All Aboard: (all caps) its great. I love it. No hes not a librarian (keysmash)

JohnWick: there's a book behind him though!

All Aboard: (keysmash) theres ONE book behind him that makes him a librarian! /joke /teasing /end image description]

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mossterious · 27 days ago

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Season 3 thoughts!!! Compiled as I watch kinda:

Time skip???

This season is giving me so much anxiety for like no reason btw it’s just freaking me out

Uther is so funny he sucks as a human, and yet he DOES care about his kids BUT! only in the worst possible ways

I kept joking that Morgana turned evil in s3 cuz I didn’t actually know WHEN she turned evil. But uh. No. I was correct.

Also they really were like in s3 Arthur gets to be a bitch again. And honestly good for him.

The goblin episode was fucking panic inducing oh my god

GWAINE GWAINE GWAINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

The thing where Merlin goes around looking like an injured deer only for him to say “look behind you :)” and then Arthur’s there to beat them up is so adorable. I love them.

I still don’t know how I feel about Morgause

Cenred being played by Lucifer is such a brain fuck (this also led to a long deep dive into actors on ouat cuz i used to watch that lol)

Gwen and Arthur are so cute actually

I am starting to have fanfic ideas but not like THAT many. Yet. And none that I’ve written down.

“I AM SUPPOSED TO BE DOING THIS ALONE” is finally here!!! Yay!

A good amount of clips I’ve seen are also from s3 but a far larger amount are from s2 I think

Oh btw Manticore IS SOOOOOO UGLY. SO UGLY. I HATE IT.

I really love Gwen and Arthur the show makes it work actually

OLD MERLIN OLD MERLIN OLD MERLINNNNNNNNNN

And Arthur immediately being like “who do I know this man”. God I love them.

My mother JUST learned Leon’s name. In season three. AND. Now she won’t stop making jokes about Leon’s the furniture company??? HELP ME.

… i talked to my brother about Gwaine too much and he made me show him the ‘Gwaine being Gwaine’ compilation that I watched way too much in 9th grade

Also we coined the term ‘Gwaine’s GWood’. For reasons. (This is actually about him using his pecs to sell stuff at his carpentry business) (we’re normal)

Oh wait one thing we’ve also been doing this season is pointing out Morgana’s patented “oh I’m secretly so evil” smile. It happens A Lot. Also related is Morgana’s ‘oh I’m so evil�� lipstick. S3 hit and they were like ‘how do we make her look evil?’ ‘Uhhhh period inaccurate red lipstick?’

FULLY EVIL MORGANA FOR THE WINNNNNNNN. However it means she can’t secret evil smile anymore cuz now she’s just regular evil smiling all the time

Sidenote I think I’ve been watching too much Merlin… was watching a movie (AN ANIMATED MOVIE) and someone dropped a FLASHLIGHT, and my first thought was “… why isn’t it catching anything on fire?” MAYBE BECAUSE IT ISNT A TORCH, BRAIN, ITS A FLASHLIGHT!!! So uh. Idk what to feel about that.

I haven’t talked about Morgause yet for some reason. I like her (because I am a SUCKER for sisters) but I also feel like she falls a lil flat. She has three emotions: Evil, Sister!, and Hair Flip. I wanna write her to give her some depthhh

Other writing ideas include evil! Merlin, Merlin saying he has magic but Arthur thinking he’s saying he’s gay, and just general poly fluff??? But Morgause pov seems so tasty rn

LANCE!!! AND PERCIVAL!!! AND PERCIVAL’S ARMS (they’re a different character btw)!!! I LOVE THE KNIGHTSSSSS!!!

Also Excalibur is so pretty this must be said. What a beautiful sword. I would marry that sword.

Gwen’s little fur thingy in her ‘oh no Camelot is taken over’ outfit is SO UGLY BTW. LOOKS LIKE SHE PUT AN IKEA RUG ON HER SHOULDER. I’m trying not to judge the outfits in this show BUT WHAT IS THATTTTTTT.

Also while I’m judging outfits they reused this one Morgana dress like 8 times in s3 alone. The weird silvery gold one. Just like- why? She has other dresses!!! Let her wear them!!!

However I am very much am pro Gwaine only having one shirt. It’s so funny. He is too busy drinking and getting yeeted around to buy a second shirt. I love him.

THE TABLE! WE HAVE THE TABLE! TABLE ACQUIRED!!!

THEYRE GETTING KNIGHTED WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! GET FUCKED CLASSISM!!!

I really like the knights :))

Lance and Merlin are adorable together actually. Look at them. Sweeties.

I hope Gwaine gets to do his ‘oops I stole your sword’ thing even when there’s a lot more fighters to choreograph now. I love his unique fighting style and if he loses it now that there’s more knights I will be SAD.

Anyway I love this show I would say it has burrowed deep inside of me but tbh it was ALREADY THERE BABYYY. When I say it’s wild it took me this long to actually watch it, I mean it. I was watching compilations of it every single day, and reading so much fic, and yet never actually watched the show??? But now I have babyyy. God I love it tho. I can’t believe I’m onto s4 wtf???

I’m finally watching Merlin!!! I cannot tell you why I never have before.

#moss watches tv

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kilomxtxrs · 3 years ago

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idk nightcrawler very well, can u tell me a lill more abt him?

!!!!!!! Okay!!

100% recommend watching the xmen movies, theyre so good. Incredible found family.

Im definitely going to get things wrong because i havent read any xmen comics so i only know little things here and there but here's the basics.

Nightcrawler is a mutant called Kurt Wagner. His birth and what happened to him varies but the general idea is that he is the son of Mystique (Raven Darkholme). She didnt want a baby so she tried to kill him. She threw him off a cliff but Kurt survived. Kurt spent his childhood in a circus in Germany. Originally he grew up quite happily in the circus, being very flexible and acrobatic. However once the circus was bought by another company, he was treated much worse. They insisted Kurt was placed in the 'Freak show' and even kept him in cages. Kurts blue skin, elf-like ears, yellow eyes and long tail were all there from birth however his teleportation powers only kicked in at puberty like most mutations. Kurt was drugged in the circus to prevent him escaping but eventually he did manage to teleport away.

This is where I'll move towards the movie lore because like i said, i dont know much about comics. :]

In the movies, more so apocalypse, Kurt never actually escaped the circus but instead he was sold to mutant cage fighting where he ended up fighting Archangel / Angel (Warren Worthington). He was rescued by Mystique and brought to the X-Mansion where he now lives and works with the xmen.

Some headcanons i have about him:

I could not tell you for the life of me what those little demon Bamf things are. I know theyre the bamfs but i cant explain them. So to make life easier i like to headcanon that Kurt just has a little plushie or two of himself that he absolutely adores.

His tail swishes when hes happy so he has to hold onto it to make sure he doesnt hit anyone because his tail has a mind of its own and he knocks so.. so many things over with it.

When hes standing next to (insert whoever you ship him with here - personally i ship him with Wolverine), kurt will wrap his tail around their leg comfortably to keep himself close.

Kurt had already left school by the time he got to the mansion. He did a few important classes like english and maths but he mostly now just helps teach/watch the younger kids. He likes helping Ororo (Storm) with her classes.

Its fun trying to think of mutations for all of the kids. Like- have you ever watched Sky High (2005)? Highschool au essentially. But imagine a kid whos mutation is just- really sharp teeth. Poor Kurt trying and failing to keep a class of loud and wild kids calm and then getting his tail bitten by the bitey child. He cries. Someone help him.

Im halfway through reading a fic ('How to bang an X-man' by Laughing_Screaming on AO3 *nsfw warning*) and in it Kurt really likes snails. He helps Ororo with gardening and she ends up gifting him 3 pet snails and i think thats adorable.

ALSO IN THE FIC, Kurt sleeps in a hammock rather than a bed because he likes being up high and curling up in it - it reminds him of when he was living on the road with the circus. Its adorable.

Not a headcanon, more of a fact, Kurt is quite religious and proud to be catholic. *tw SH* In the movies he has symbols and patterns all over his body which are self inflicted - 'one for every sin'. Whereas in the comics, Kurt is much more fuzzy and fluffy - having fur rather than just blue skin. People describe his skin to be almost velvety? Or like a peach? And whilst that makes my autistic brain want to gag, it is a cool detail.

Also not a headcanon but Kurt is a nerd. He has an interest in everything to do with pirates. His weapon of choice is a cutlass. Ive never watched it and i dont plan to but he'd probably enjoy that gay pirate show everyone likes at the moment. (OFMD)

#if i think of any more I'll definitely reblog and add to it but im blanking at the moment #thank you so much for letting me ramble about him :D <3 #long post #kurt wagner #nightcrawler #xmen

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cishetamine · 2 years ago

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the worst person in the world (2021) letterboxd review (already crossposted this to twt but reposting here for………'research'[you'll see)]

funny how i originally thought this movie was adapted from a novel even BEFORE a major character contracted a terminal illness (aka like one of the most common things that can happen to a character in a Realistic Fiction Novel, right after infidelity). it just has that MFA vibe!

this movie feels like a deceptive advertisement for living in norway. isn't it mostly cold there ? (update: i have looked up the average winter monthly temperatures in oslo & theyre actually pretty much the same as where i live. whooops!!)

the music in this is good when it’s good & rly annoying when it’s not

hilarious and insane that norway’s indie comics scene is (or is at least depicted as being) exactly the same as in the US—i.e., dominated by edgy cishet dudes all too willing to use mere shock factor as an excuse for originality

like…he has characters whose names are translated as “Dick Wolf Dick” & “Pedo the Parrot” which, come ON but also that literally is what these guys are like……like. So true besty

& yet ! i also can't help but sympathize w/ the comic boyfriend re: the Great Endless Cancel Culture Debate bc ppl have also told me stuff like, “i hate all the people in your comics”

which like! Fair, i don't intend for my characters to be Nice People (well ok some of them are well-intentioned but also kinda hopeless/lost causes)

but also the bf (well, ex-bf—in more ways than 1!!) is exactly right—comics are where i put all the horrible thoughts in my brain that i can’t exorcize by any other means!

love that she shares my hobby of “lying to strangers at parties”……she’s so cool

this movie has a lot of fun little moments that feel pointily realistic: (e.g.: getting interrupted repeatedly while fooling around w/ someone at a party bc you’ve decided to canoodle one another in the Designated Bed Where Everyone Puts Their {Admittedly Extremely Soft + Sensual} Coats, and now everyone is coming to get their jackets & keeps walking in on u while you're trying to snog)

^ another such moment: when her dad says that the link to the libfem girlpower-vibes sex article she wrote doesn’t work, & it’s up to us to decide if there’s actually an issue with his phone or he was just being squeamish abt sex

i wouldn’t call these "wow just like irl lmao" moments exactly the same as the ones in a coen bros movie, but they’re similar imo ? like, those are always my favorite things abt their films (the violence is fine but usually kind of boring to me at this point. like, okay, he has a gun, great. can we bring back the wood chipper? no, too expensive? well how about the cattle stunner thingy, do you still have that thingamajig laying around?)

nah i'm talking like, the way they make the pauses in an ordinary conversation as awkwardly real as possible. ofc when they do it it's often bc there's some sort of double entendre[not necessarily sexual] going on, like w/ the confusion re: the kidnapping in fargo or the student trying to cheat in a serious man. but lebowski has a lot of fun realistic conversationy stuff that's just plain weird, which i guess i'm comparing this more to?

wait. Holy shit. is it at all true that “most women don’t like giving blowjobs”!?!?!?!? Like What the FUCK. is this a straight vs gay thing??? i don’t get it……what could turn u on more than being good at making yr partner cum??? (ok well i can think of several things actually but literally why are u having sex w/ someone unless it’s mutually enjoyable i——???? honestly this was maybe the least believable part of the movie 4 me :// can straight women PLEASE weigh in on thisPLEAAAASEEEEE!!!!!!)

re: “they’ve housebroken bobcat” I HAVE TO KNOW whether the bit abt removing the cartoon cat’s butthole was in response to CATS (2019).

this movie feels like propaganda from the norwegian board of tourism. case in point: basically all of the action happens in summer. also, that scene where she runs outside and the world is frozen in time feels kinda like an ad. sorry if my brain has been broken by america superb owl commercial culture :(

it’s fascinating to see a film that’s so contemporary & relatable but also not quite my own life??? kinda like the gaggle of cishet-presenting girls i saw on the train recently—bc i was aware of most of the celebrity gossip & news stuff they were talking abt, but i still came away feeling like i inhabit a very different—albeit parallel—world from them. for more context, here is my best try at a transcript of their convo: www.tumblr.com/cishetamine/701574180800479232/lily-rose-depp-they-were-calling-her-a-nepo

(p.s. please don't get mad at me for snooping on strangers, i'm just one of many credulous clods who once heard that u can get better at writing by transcribing how ppl really talk. & from there i got obsessed w/ doing this whenever someone is having an interesting convo near me. also most importantly, i didn't write down any personally identifying info & also these ppl are totally anonymous anyway. so plz enjoy @ yr leisure!)

love how this dude reminisces abt being a Record Store / Video Store / Comic Store guy !!! i.e., he’s an alt bro!!! love that for him. it's so cute that norway has hipsters too<3 squee!

also luv how "i just took a dna test turns out / i'm 3.1% sami" is the norwegian equivalent of “my great grandmother was a cherokee princess” cosplaying indigeneity

^ overall tho, the extinction rebellion-core gf feels kinda way too flat & one-note……but also i literally know ppl who are like that!! like i've had friends who were into radical veganism + environmentalism & it did seem kind of culty……which is not to say that ppl shouldn't be vegan or environmentalist, of course! but i have absolutely seen it turn into Unhealthy Polycule Drama & we've just seen where that leads, cough FTX / EAs, cough

no but it’s fascinating how this depiction of norwegian ~radical~ environmentalism compares to the scene in the US. for instance i feel like i’ve never heard an american state that they chose not to fly across the ocean bc it would increase their carbon footpri——wait no actually yes i have heard this, but specifically in the context of academic conferences, never like, regarding travel for fun. Interesting difference here!

(^ also, those were basically only professors on twitter who were saying that, not ppl i know in real life. so another level of remove from me)

[meanwhile i would chop off one of my less-important fingers in exchange for being able to fly across the ocean, environment be damned] [anyway tbh i figure it wouldn’t be thaaaaaat evil so long as i was able to stay in that other country for at least several months, as opposed to business travelers who frequently fly back & forth. but i would want to stay bc i would be desperate to learn the language!

which language, you ask? why, my answer is—Yes!]

anyway enough feeling sorry for myself for not being rich. time to feel sorry for imaginary movie ppl instead!

“i don’t want to be the sensible choice while she’s the sexy one” damn that makes a lot of sense! i definitely feel that re: pressure to be Exciting & Spontaneous & Ever-Flexible so that ppl will find u attractive / alluring instead of setting boundaries (given the choice between setting a boundary vs having sex with someone hot, i will almost always choose the latte——ah, but you see, posting this in a public forum where people i've had sex with can read it is itself an act of performati——

So about the main character. We don’t get much interiority of her, like aside from the stuff at the beginning abt her various major + career changes, we don't get to hear directly the thoughts she is thinking—not just bc we don't hear much in the way of interior monologue, but also bc she doesn't explain herself to the ppl around her.

like, she didn't tell her then-bf that there was in fact another guy—which like, honestly, if i were in her situation, i might also take the coward's route! especially if she feared jealous retribution from her current bf. but we don't know if she fears that, bc we never see her talk to her FRIENDS, bc for all we know, she doesn't have any!!!!

which feels very……hard for me to believe? bc i have never met a woman who did not have Friends. (& supposedly guys tend to have fewer pals, but even they usually seem to at least have like, Gamer Buds, idk! i know i always did back when i was a Gamer in high school, even if i was kinda withdrawn irl.)

so i'm left wondering—are we supposed to see her as genuinely friendless? & if so, what does that say abt her?

or are we just supposed to assume that the movie doesn't want to show her friends? if that's the case, why would it make that decision??

if we as viewers are supposed to actually believe that she doesn't have friends that she can confide in whom she is not romantically involved with……it rly paints a very specific (& melancholy!) picture of her as a person. bc that's a stereotype i mostly associate w/ Isolated Guys, but yet she is not that! (i would like to be her friend & talk abt photography..)

still not sure how i feel abt the freeze-time gimmick. Like on the 1 hand—it’s giving crazy ex girlfriend tv show. But also………idk it looks kinda cool regardless!

between this & tár, i feel sooo…………something abt watching 2 movies in a short timespan that contain Bitingly Contemporary Cancellation Scenes, & also cell phones………i………hmm.

thinking abt gretchen from twitter, a noble woman fighting for a just cause (telling adult YA fans to get a life), yet whose ratioing ultimately feels sorta pyrrhic to me, such that i have to wonder if it's worth the stress it presumably causes her.

but also, i am much more of a wimp than many people! for instance, a lot of ppl are strong tough athletes who put themselves thru a lot of pain because they find it enjoyable overall! whereas personally i only do exercise when i can convince myself that it's fun (e.g., biking places, swimming in water that isn't freezing cold)

so what i'm saying is perhaps gretchen sees being a Culture Warrior as a noble pursuit &/or lives for the thrill of the takedown, whereas i'm probably conflict-averse to a fault. (also, on a materialist level, she gets plenty of publicity for fighting the good fight—& as an author, building an audience is pretty crucial to keeping the lights on!)

anyway, right—the reason i'm thinking abt her at all in the context of this film is bc of the Cancel Culture Scene. bc i'm sympathetic to both the comics artist himself as well as his critics—bc like gretchen & her supporters always say, i believe artists have the right to be messy & sexual & graphic & painful & problematic & difficult to untangle……both bc i prefer to consume art (like this movie!) that fits that description, & bc that's ultimately the kind of work i would like to create.

but what's weird abt the tv interview in the gym in this movie is that we don't really even get to see exactly what the feminists debating the comics boyfriend are actually mad at him about. it's all vague—probably bc the point isn't the debate itself so much as its effect on his ex-gf! (& we know this bc the camera spends hella time tracking her facial reactions throughout this scene, as opposed to focusing primarily on the ex-boyfriend being interviewed.)

(btw for the record, i've read some of gretchen's writing but not a huge amount, & i think she's quite talented at describing compelling visual scenes, but i do worry that some of her political commentary is just so on-the-nose that it isn't as funny as it wants to be?

like, sure, i hate raytheon tenderqueers as much as any Good Leftoid! obviously imperialist militaries are evil & should be systematically dismantled, & it's sickening seeing the cynical liberal war machine attempt to suck us gays into its awful whirling gears.

but—as we saw with countless lib comedians attempting to parody trump—just bc you're making fun of something genuinely bad, doesn't mean your jokes are automagically hilarious!)

oh right, i was building toward something—namely: it feels like there's 3 sides in the big Cancel Culture Debate these days:

(mostly but not solely) christian right-wingers who hate the gays

young people who ummm [takes a full minute to check something on my phone] believe barnes & noble should sort books by tone indicator & who think fujoshis will trigger the third impact

cool edgy trans ppl caught in the middle of these 2 groups, martyred like that one saint mishima used to jack off to & permitted to do any crime so long as it is judged as being sufficiently badass by the Council of Trans Elders

anyway i was just gonna say: you know how sun tzu art of war has that thing abt how u should make your enemies fight each other instead of u fighting on 2 sides at once?

yeah, i think we should come up with a new discourse designed to do exactly that. or maybe get the evangelicals & catholics to fight again over whether asexual priests are valid or if they have to be volcel to really count. hopefully they'll wear themselves out, & our[if i may be so bold as to number myself among the Edgy Trans] troops of keyboard warriors will be able to reenter the fray refreshed to fight another day!

#letterboxd #movie thots #the worst person in the world #informal poll #reposting this here bc i want as large of a sample size as possible for the BJ question

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boypussydilf · 2 years ago

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Shusumi for the relationship ask game

i dont know how you even found my blog but thank you *kisses your hand like a prince meeting a princess*

describe their canon relationship/dynamic

oh , you know. sumi is lonely and full of Emotions but doesn’t even know That let alone why she feels it and then a cool guy shows up and is Nice To Her and she goes omg!!! [latches onto him for reasons barely related to Who He Is As A Person] and akira goes Oh another person who wants to use me as a sounding board for their internal monologue. sounds fun :) This probably sounds mean, and almost DEFINITELY is not the dynamic the writers Intended for them to have, but i like it i think its really funny

legit sumi just wants someone to look up to and to rely on and akira was either blessed or cursed by god with a special talent for Being Relied On. she wants to feel like someones helping her and hes happy to help anyone. etc

your ideal/headcanon version of it? how does it differ from how it is in canon & why is this your favorite version? any other alternate versions of it you enjoy?

you know ive thought about royal trio and ive thought abt akesumi friendship but i dont think abt Just These Two that much.

first of all RIP to the person who sent this if they come back hoping for some Clearly Romantic ShuSumi Takes but to me they are like siblings. sumire doesnt Realize theyre siblings but akira is just constantly taking new younger siblings under his wings and she is included. theyre siblings in a very drastically different way from akira & futaba though akira and futaba are loud and obnoxious and chase each other around sojiros house like a couple of grade schoolers and sumi is not completely barred from that but her and akira are more like. they meet up and sumi talks about her Life and her Feelings and akira gives her Just Enough Advice To Be Helpful Without Being Pushy and then they, like, look at college application forms together or something. its practical, i guess is what im saying. akira Sometimes bullies and pesters her (affectionate) but her reactions dont tend to be very strong so its not as fun.

im Neutral on genuinely romantic shusumi, to me they are not that interesting as a ship and also they are both gay in the wrong direction and also they are big brother little sister mode, but i do exist in a state of absolute fascination with like. comphet shusumi. literally sumire is going I want a Perfect Life and that means Living Stereotypical Heterosexual Romance Tropes :) and she thinks she has found her opportunity here and is telling herself Yes i am IN LOVE! this is what that is! I cannot conceive of a version of the akira from my brain who doesnt know full well hes gay but if he somehow didnt wouldnt these 2 cringefail straight dating living their ridiculously played-straight damsel in distress & noble hero story be the funniest thing ever. And by that i mean fascinating and a torment labyrinth i wish them luck escaping

Also i think they are getting along fine and normal the way they are but like. sumire “used to relying on other people A Lot” yoshizawa and akira “just wants to help people. A Lot” kurusu. They can either have the perfect friendship that is exactly what sumi needs where he has the right level of involvement to help her gain confidence in herself while still knowing she can turn to someone for help. Or go straight off a cliff into bizarre codependency.

Basically I like it when things have the potential to be kind of fucked up. But they aren’t these guys are normal. They just sit in leblanc telling each other dad jokes. Akira buys a wallet just to put a comically large collection of photos of sumi’s greatest achievements in them and proudly show it off to his friends. She gradually goes from reacting to him experiencing something Comically Bad but Harmless like tripping over something with giggling immediately deliberately stifled by SORRY IMSOSORRY ARE YOU OKAY, to just openly laughing at him and he pretends to be annoyed but he’s happy about it.

what do you like about their relationship, why is it interesting or enjoyable to you?

I like Akira World’s Most Big Brother Moments #227. i like all the different winding pathways the concept of Them can go down bc i like having things to pick apart and analyze and look at from hundreds of different angles. i like. the video game persona 5 royal

what about the individual characters involved? what does this relationship mean to them, what makes it unique among their relationships?

No matter what, like. Sumire at the point in time where they meet NEEDS this, i think. Her sister just Died and she doesn’t really know it but she’s trying to figure out her place in the world Without her and also if the fact that most shujin students seem to dislike her is anything to go off of she doesn’t really like, have friends? She needs like. A hand to help her up. Someone To Lean On. Sort of like how Becoming Kasumi was not, like, The Best Solution To Her Problems, but was really helpful in getting her through that period of her life. & now she has someone who will listen to her and help her unconditionally and that is Great for her. She looks up to Akira she admires him she is eternally thankful & grateful to him. And also is convinced she’s in love with him

As for akira i . </3 For most of the time they know each other she’s kind of Just Some Girl He Knows. he definitely cares about her a lot & they have the chance to get closer in third sem what w her being Herself again & she Is part of his Little Sibling Collection. but i cant think of anything akira is getting out of this relationship aside from general Human Socialization. he just want to protect it want to see it grow up healthy (i say that a lot huh.)

favorite interaction they have in canon

Zero interest in them as a couple but sumis romance route IS one of the best things in all of p5 just for the scene where akira leans on leblancs counter Like That and stares at her just to be a Nuisance

favorite interaction they have in your head/a situation you want to put them in

oh god oh fuck i dont know uhhhhh. I think THEY should bully akechi together. I think sumi should get mad at akira. Not for anything in particular i just think sumi has the potential to be very mean if she will allow herself to Feel Negative Feelings and i like conflict between friends. Sumire tries to teach him gymnastics and he forgets hes not in a palace and does something stupid and embarrassing like faceplanting into a wall for no reason and shes very polite about it at first but in the long run she will not let him live it down. umm. thats it. i like them <3

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