#someone help theyre being gay in my brain

[boombaux]

[chaoticprussia]

I want to ask abt ur headcanons for JE, TR and KOI / FI and then their modern counter parts if u want

dude i have so many fucking headcanons for these guys its gonna be hard to write them all down. ill just give you a few for each of them. dont expect this to be all my headcanons neatly put in one post i am dogshit at organizing my thoughts. this is just a taste of my headcanons. youll get more out of me with art and comic.

Japan Empire — you already know by now theyre a kitsune and also will just switch genders whenever they feels like it. theyre very solitary and dont really like working with people but if they do ally with someone theyre extremely loyal. 'til death do us part' levels of loyalty. not that they were romantic in any way (they werent) its just that they would rather kill themselves than fail. they were weirdly okay with killing themself honestly if therapy existed back then that wasnt just getting a lobotomy i wouldve told them to go. theyre also much older than TR is. like by a lot. they used to be a lot more peaceful too when they were younger before they broke that oath and started being super imperialist. and oh my god theyve committed soooo many war crimes. they also had a really weird relationship with america before bombing his ass in ww2 and then getting blown up. NO idea what they had going on. JEs relationship with japan was nothing special. the scary strict parent type. but just imagine theyre also a war lord and abused other children that arent theirs. but they did love japan they just never said it out loud or really got to show it. and they never got a chance to. unfortunate how things turn out like this isnt it.

Third Riech — god. where do i even start. TR used to be the weimar republic before he turned 17 and lost his fucking mind. before then he lost his father at a young age was forced to sign an honestly unfair to him treaty (bro hes was like 12) despite him still recovering from his DAD FUCKING DYING plus ptsd from the war that just happened. and had to work like a dog the whole time while bread cost a fucking fortune. this is all before the whole being a nazi thing. you can see where he got his resentment from yeah? austria also had a hand in this too he didnt slip down this path of disparity all by himself. also soviet was in here somewhere. ill explain weimar and soviets relationship in a different post. but all of this resentment towards the world built up inside him until one day he just fucking snapped. this was also probably due to his many undiagnosed disorders that austria was not helping with despite that literally being his JOB. but whatever. hes a nazi at 17 now. and then from there he just gets worse and worse until all of that ww2 bullshit happens he has germanys sometime near the end of it and then he kills himself at 29. he and germany wouldve had the best relationship by the way if he didnt kill himself before germany could form long term memories. because TR loved kids. one of his only redeeming qualities honestly. and animals and art. so he had three things going for him. vs the hundreds of things wrong with him but that was a start. honestly if the bullet didnt kill him maybe the brain damage wouldve fixed him and germany couldve had a relationship with his dad. god if only…they make me really sad. also he and soviet were definitely exes. TR has literally never felt the touch of a women before this motherfucker is gay as hell. i dont make the rules.

Kingdom of Italy — DO NOT BE FOOLED BY THE WIDER FANDOM CHARACTERIZATIONS OF THIS MAN. this is not the yaoi soft boy of the team this is a cold hearted calculated manipulator who is literally older than TR is. (now depending on how far i wanna take this hes either just like from the mid 1800s old or hes like OLD old. like renaissance or even middle ages old. i like to think hes been around for a WHILE.) he literally babysat him. i have a lot of KOI and TR lore and most of it is really fucked up. but he did save TR from drowning in a river that one time when TR was 2. so thats wholesome????? this is an old ass creepy christian man. he is a STRICT man of faith and was practically raised by the old pope (papal states) and he plays into it very well. he may be the weaker link of the team strength wise but he has a particular set of skills to make up for it. hes also a fantastic cook! now his relationship with modern italy. his son. is a little complicated. without spoiling his relationship with papal states he wanted to be a better father to italy than that man ever was but he himself was a horrible man. but he taught the boy how to cook. and he was extremely protective of italy. so they had the best relationship out of the three i think…

theres more TR lore because to explain TR i have to explain weimar and hes practically a whole other character with how different they are. but they are also incredibly similar. same person.

[gorgeousmanfounddeadinacroptop]

ok watching ep 4 finally running monologue

- tongrak being a good tipper to show how he both isnt stingy and can be quite generous but also spends money like its nothing

- the girls trying to seduce him mama i know damn well there are gay guys on that island lets use our brains

-mut looking like a kicked puppy :(((

-theyre both so sad

-as someone else pointed out mut is wearing shoes hes ready to go

-hes such a little shit for having a car but picking up rak on the bike

-who is the boss here?

-"i wont be coming back to the island again" yeah ok whatever you say buddy

-not the slow mo replayed kdrama arm grab

-oh tongraks dumbass is in love and he doesnt even know it bless his heart

-this cannot be the ferry that takes you back to the mainland

-this place is ridiculous

-THREE FLOORS FOR ONE PERSON WHO NEEDS ALL THAT

-this really is the episode of sad kicked puppy mut

-does tongrak looks like he eats to you mut? bc to me he looks like a guy who doesnt eat

-poor palm this has happened to him TWICE this season

-love sky (and i do)

-love storm too my lita babies

- love director is also here but wtv unless we actually cast a pathetic 38 year old divorcee for frost i dont want it!

-ok so he does bring up connorkhom again these guys have done this twice in the span of a couple months

-this is workplace sexual harrassment

-awww he loves watching them bicker cute

-oh to have an uber competent lesbian secretary

-my poor mut hes resigned to his fate looks so sad

-BAD BITCH ALERT

-a handshake ? yall were JUST discussing barebacking smh

-mook doesnt understand men queen

-daddy?

-transition and you too can get with tongrak

-mook needs new friends

-i need to know the layout of this house what is going on

-again whatever helps you sleep at night

-mind you they were sleeping on mahasamuts mattress on the floor like 3 days ago at tongraks behest now hes shutting mut out ... sister

-her bodys tea tho

-stupid excuse to hold a girls hand shes real

-is this prin?

-thats a lot of oil

-this episode everyone was sad and pathetic sans vivie she was having the time of her life

-whos the daddy now

-oh a lot of vimook next ep sign me up

-i was gonna say "rak is alone again in the credits but mut showed up 🥹"

[fefairys]

now ive got quadrants on the brain specifically kismesissitude because i see the general attitude towards "do you use hs quadrants to label ur irl relationships?" as "i have a moirail/understand having a moirail but the black quadrants just dont work for humans, theyre for a fictional species" or "i have a kismesis but its like a joke" and im like lol. lmao even.

i guess it is my troll kinnie ass but the most common crush i get on people is a pitch one lmao.. my relationship with my fiance started as a kismesissitude and slowly morphed into kismoirailsprits over time, but like, we were a healthy kismesissitude and we still are partly kismesisses! idk if yall saw that gay little interaction we just had (scroll a few posts down on my blog lmao) but like we are still antagonistic towards each other a lot and our relationship started with us hating each other and was built around how much we annoyed each other.

its a very specific feeling and emotion to me! because i have dated people and NOT felt that way, too, so its not like "oh but everyones playfully antagonistic to their partners sometimes!" no no no this is so different. because when i was with my last girlfriend, yeah we would tease each other sometimes, but it wasn't the same feeling as Pitch Romance to me. it's a whole different feeling.

i very often get crushes on people where they annoy the hell out of me. i find them attractive, and even charming at times, but most of the time when they talk im like oh my god you are the most annoying person in the world. i want to make out with you about it. pitch feelings are about being ANGRY that you like you someone so much, to me. like "why the fuck do i like you so much when you're always getting on my nerves. why do i want to be around you all the time even though everything you say pisses me off. why do i want to kiss you." lmao. thats my experience at least! and also wanting to annoy them and rile them up in return. thats how i felt about juice at the start of our relationship, and i still have those feelings towards it now, though i also have other feelings like just plain and simple genuine Love and Affection without the annoyance as well. it fluctuates. depends on if we are annoying each other at the moment or not haha

i've told ppl this and they've been like "oh so its like tsundere" and im just like. I GUESS????? but to me it is so different like i feel like tsundere is when you like someone but cant admit it so you act like you hate them (maybe you even believe that you hate them, but truly, you like them) whereas kismesissitude is truly hating someone, finding them annoying and infuriating, but in an exhilarating way. i hate you and you hate me and its fun to annoy each other and watch each other get all mad.

the quadrant i'd personally never feel the need to be part of is the ashen one because its main purpose is to prevent cheating on ur kismesis and its like. well im polyamorous so. lol. i could see it being used in human relationships if its like, someone who functions as your moirail and helps mediate in arguments you have with other people where you/the other person are getting too angry with each other? i guess?

and also like. treating a moiraillegience as monogamous and something you can "cheat on" someone else with is definitely not the way to go imo. i mean im in a pale throuple rn. we call each other moirails because we trust each other more than anyone with talking about our feelings and stuff! but back in the day i remember people literally being like "he said *paps you* to my moirail what the fuck thats MY moirai only *i* can pap them!l" and its like alright calm down...

[ashleymint]

HELP ME ok

who is and is not jack’s dad ideally theyre all jacks dad but I see sam as like.... dad-uncle mix

which member of tfw suffered most I know sam was in the cage for 150 years or some shit but I feel like dean's 40 year stretch was worse so in short idk give them all a hug + therapy

is cas gay or bi he's deansexual but yeah gay

destiel. who was worse to the other dean's worse

should dean have lived in the finale and moved on with someone else or stuck to killing himself? I reject this false dichotomy

is the night we met a bad song? (i only ever saw this take once and i blocked the person i just wanted to have a laugh over this thought) no I really like it I just wish they didn't use it for 13 reasons why

emma/any other one off kid I can't even

fine dean can have romantic relationships with other people but we draw the line at castiel having one unbelievable discourse meant for pea brains and my brain is at least the size of a walnut

would they ever actually get married Probably not they're both weirdos with baggage and they only care about their love being real to each other

finale we got aka ambiguous destiel vs confirmed no destiel but we get cas back I'm not trading the confession for anything other than a full frontal sex scene

would dean hate that fucking dog ? I don't even remember seeing this discourse

fights from 2021/22 spnblr i think we should rehash just for drama and hater sake:

who is and is not jack’s dad

which member of tfw suffered most

is cas gay or bi

destiel. who was worse to the other

should dean have lived in the finale and moved on with someone else or stuck to killing himself?

is the night we met a bad song? (i only ever saw this take once and i blocked the person i just wanted to have a laugh over this thought)

emma/any other one off kid

fine dean can have romantic relationships with other people but we draw the line at castiel having one

would they ever actually get married

finale we got aka ambiguous destiel vs confirmed no destiel but we get cas back

would dean hate that fucking dog ?

[emlos]

i saw a long ass twisted sister/republican misunderstanding of art post and i am the only person whos like. weirded out by this. person. their blog is full of this, and im baffled people reblog the post with their (and similarly sounding others to be fair) additions

like. you do realize 'right wingers' are people, who like everyone else have the capacity for joy and evil and art and lying and helping? like this is straight up making out a group of very real, often incredibly harmful people into something Else (something worse. parasites subhumans worse worse worse theyre below us) which takes away the responsibility and culpability of them, paradoxically. if theyre evil theyre always gonna be evil and theyre the Evil people, who are useless and basically they all should die! worthless "parasites" hell yeah! up to the wall with them! because if theyre all evil, you get to hurt them. if they are evil, no matter what you do youre always justified, and everything they do is worthless, and actually stolen from us - the good guys! we're not part of the ~evil group~ so we are the ~good group~ who are the only oens capable of Good acts. what im saying is - this is very dramatic, and a harmful mindset to have, for yourself

because theres compelling art made by right wingers, and god "the only thing right wingers create is death and suffering" is just so... do you really believe that? do you believe that idk, a random trump voter (im making an assumption that 'right winger' to this person means republican, my apologies if not) is such a twisted shadownbeing, sitting in their room and just giggling reading news reports of the crimes committed by the united states government? if you do believe it, im curious, what allows you to see other people as subhuman? where is the line? would someone who has right wing policies but votes blue a Parasite too? how about someone whos a pillar to the community, but votes for trump? what unpersons someone?

actually hold on, i went to that persons blog, and damn, theyre completely divorced from reality. either childish or american possibly both. i feel kind of bad looking at their blog, so im not gonna put them on blast. my brain has taught me that this extreme of a black white thinking is often a fear response, and - surprise here - often (not always, id say not even in most cases) this it the thing that drives the truly harmful beliefs too.

i cant overstate how i wish all 'right wingers' would change their minds! i have an idea of an utopia, of the right and correct ways to do things, leftistly and artistically, valuably. in the recent months ive figured out for myself that a better world is always possible, but its too late for the world to be good. and its crushing, but this kind of response, is not really making the world better, its just limiting your view of the world. from this post, it doesnt sound like you want 'good' art, that you appreciate the role that arts have to resisting fascist mindsets - to me it feels like youre very angry at the world for being unfair, and you didnt think about what you were actually saying

i just want to bring attention that this kind of wording it, can very quickly spiral into not seeing people as people, and it paradoxically removes the responsibility from them. my father is an anti fascist (anti communist too) right winger - because believe it or not as much as i hate him and the right, it is a system of politics, that he has adapted not because he's built evil, because he wants to hurt people, because he wants to benefit just himself (though thats a part of it too! politics as its practiced its drawing a circle labeled "us" and "them"). hes a polish catholic sexist history professor at an university, who wholeheartedly believes that gay marriage in poland is equivalent to having 'the lgbtqabsczyx' be privileged. a lot of his beliefs are ruled by fear. i really hate him, but i dont see him as subhuman. (well. not because of his politics, i just fucking hate him personally) and i guess this post has no point, im just surprised that nobody in the tags that ive seen has said anything?

what a sad way to live

[spicycowboyhole]

posting because the psychicatrist decided to get sick when im having a crisis?:

idk where to start tbh LLOOL but i think im NOT DOING WELL. like on the outside evertytthings fine like nothings changed at all but i think im going insane. i think ive just realized how i have like 0 emotional suppoport system and whenever someone says something genuinely nice about me it makes me feel emotional because like i had family visiting this past week and my mom and my cousins tarted talking about college and my mom was saying how i wasted money going to college. i said that i didnt feel like i wasted my money becasue i have a degree now and i could always go back and get my bachelors but she said "BUT WHAT ARE U DOING EITH IT" and it just pissed me off because i feel like shes negating my accomplishment.

what made me cry last night was when i was messaging this guy and he was telling me about how he had class in the morning and we started talking about college. i told him how i was thinking about going back to school in january and he said i should.

for some reason i feel like getting my degree in psych would be cringe or a waste of time/money because my friend told me everyone she knows who did thinks so, like its some useless art degree. but when i asked this guy if it was cringe he said "so cringe... imagine having ambitions" im fucking stupid and didnt notice the sarcasm and i said "might as well start playing bucket drums on the street ig" because idk i guess i imagine getting a degree in psych would be just as dumb as someone trying to make it in the music business by playing on the street or something. he said "everyone thats going to college has ambitions. So in that case we all need to go play street bongos" and that perspective completely exploded my brain and i started crying LMAO because i guess going to college is a risk no matter what and u just have to believe in urself or some gay shit. it made me think of a taz cameo where he told someone that "nobody is gonna support your journey no matter how much they love you until youve proved to them that your journey was worth supporting" and that made me sad kinda because like i said i dont think i really have any kind of support from family rn and i kinda just have myself but i have like 0 confidence and negative self esteem and my family just being dissapointed in me and saying negative stuff really doesnt help. so i guess the moral of the story is that i have to trust and believe in myself because no one else will! really sucks i think. yeah but i only just started talking to that guy like YESTERDAY and im sure he prob felt like what he told me was nothing but it really did impact me and pulled the last tiny string that was emotionally holding me together. i apologized for being cynical and i told him i appreciated his words because i was kinda responding in a joking way that might have come off as rude i think? the silly bandaid just isnt working so good no more.

but fr i think while my anxiety is a lot better i think my depression is getting worse just due to my circumstances. like can u believe i almost went to the movies with some stranger internet guy just because i didnt want to be with my family?? i think somethings making me more impulsive than usual. i was going to buy cigarettes today and the only reason i didnt was because my appointment got canceled.

some other things tho i kinda didnt like having my cousins come visit because i just feel so inferior to them. like they look better and are just doing kinda all the stuff i should be doing yk? makes me feel shitty AND i feel like my mom just kinda infantilizes me like my parents treat me like nemo and i just cant do some things for some reason. its just so frustrating like my parents make me upset and i just want to move far away from them but also like they dont encourage me to do stuff on my own and when i try theyre like how are you even gonna do that you cant do that you have a bad fin like HELLO HELP ME FIX MY FIN THEN? I WOULDNT HAVE A BAD FIN IF YOU DIDNT HELP PREVENT IT IN THE FIRST PLACE LOL BUT IT JUST SUCKS THAT I HAVE TO DO ALL THIS BY MYSELF

i just dont want to be living here in like 5 years. thats a goal huh? if i had been asked where i wanted to be in 5 yrs when i was in high school id be like idk but i somehow managed to grow a goal somehow just out of misery i guess. and the steps are so cleaar in my head but then the voices tell me i cant do it because im scared BUT thats the point of life or something right??

jesus chhrososttt in reality nothing is really changing irl but im having some sort of crisis rn

ive even been trying to talk to boys LOL ive just been wanting some kind of escape from my life,, some independence, i want MY OWN LIFE that my mommy doesnt know everything about. i want to go to the movies with someone im not related to.

ok these paragraphes are all fucked up and i would fix it but i dont wanna go through and reread them

[endfght]

🎲 x 6

grace baker & lilly jones: ok brain empty but,, grace's father was a notorious killer,, she goes on to become a journalist,,, theres gotta be something there right?? ive never seen hannibal but i know the general premise and i feel like?? some of the concept can be carried over here??? grace would be so interested to get into the mind of someone even remotely similar to her father since she has so many questions that she never thought she'd get any answers to.

lauren mallory & victoria: i get vampire!lauren when. lauren and victoria :handshake: wanting bella dead. anYWAY lauren is so.. Unhappy in forks and would jump at any chance to do something exciting, but most of all, she would jump at any chance to get the fuck outta town!!! she has a tendency to be A Lot but with a little bit of tough love and time she can be a good friend and ally!! i dont know if she'd have any kind of special ability as a vampire,,, but i still think they could work.

kirsty cotton & samantha carpenter: final girls that say fuck you to their monsters Need to stand together. even if kirsty's were actually from Hell and sam's were just people that didnt know how to just Let Shit Go, theyre both still survivors and Badass Bitches and i simply think that they could kick ass together. kirsty in my portrayal does eventually go on to become a social worker so maybe she'd worked with sam/tara before idkidk i just think that they could be really a neat duo.

robin craig & natalie pace: i watched through all of lost like,, a year or two ago but my memory of it isnt 100% past the first few seasons (but now i lowkey,,, wanna rewatch it). robin playing natalie in a film adaptation of the crash of oceanic flight 815. NO but actually... i would not mind throwing robin into lost at all. traveling for work and all of a sudden damn,, ur stuck on an island girlie!! i could definitely see the two of them forming some kind of alliance or pact or somETHING though and just,, Looking Out for one another early on,, working together later when things start to get crazy on the island.

kirby reed & cindy berman: summer camp counselor kirby reed at ur service 🫡 kirby being just enough of a bad influence in cindy's life<3 jill who?? cindy is kirby's best friend now. sorry i don't make the rules. maybe theyre counselors in the same cabin??? BUT ALSO,, cindy in scream?? friends with kirby, jill, and olivia??? them SURVIVING TOGETHER,,, i just,,, i think that they would be good friends and no matter what universe they were in they would Support one another's life journeys<3

van palmer & robin buckley: LESBIANS! LESBIANS!!!!!! throwing van into fear street can be done just as easily as throwing robin into yellowjackets imo. van as a counselor at nightwing and then an adult helping deena and the others in 94,, oR more practically,, van in 94, a Gay on the soccer team,, thrown into running for her life from possessed demon murder victims<3 robin in the Wilderness would change my life i think. @carnagebled.

[windupaidoneus]

putting my tags on there bc theyre essential as i continue to list off my dragon age ocs who actually have names (sorry placeholder name buntweed i'll get back to you some day)

hajnalka: ehh... erm.. ive seen how people talk about women who do questionable to bad things. did hajnalka effectively utilise girlpower when she seized the throne by putting her brother on it, leading to his only political opponent being executed, then killed him after she got reinstated as part of the aeducan family? was hajnalka a good lesbian when she fully planned on leaving leliana to grieve without telling her she was (supposedly) going to die by killing the archdemon solely for the glory of it? (she did not get to die NOR did she get to kill the archdemon & she's mad as hell about that. also had no qualms leaving orzammar without a ruler yet again. personally i think she's fucking hilarious for all of this)

percy: purple hawke through & through. lies to everyone (except his family & that's because he Can't lie to them they already know) about him not being a mage. only reveals it after the chantry explosion. can't consider that a betrayal on anders' part despite them dating bc he never told anders, THE mage liberation guy, that he's a mage before that. like... oopsie! mutual lying! mutual hiding pretty fucking important shit! he also tried to make a deal with the demon in the deep roads because he was fully confident he'd be able to twist it around & fuck the demon over while getting off scot-free due to his education. king of malicious compliance. will do anything to keep his loved ones safe even if they don't like it. he's not BAD gay trans rep per se but he's a character who sucks in his own ways & happens to be gay & trans. wait he did fully volunteer to remain in the fade. bro you piss me off for real (he & alistair both stayed behind shamir just so happened to drag anders with him into the fade to save both of them. hashtag somniari privilege)

lucretia: outwardly centrist about things. she has opinions & wants to keep her family safe including the mages but will not get involved in mage vs templar shit at all if she can help it. "they're not targeting ME so it's not my problem" but only because percy is taking care of protecting bethany & himself just fine. really percy would like it if she didn't leave it all up to him, a very vulnerable party in this, but he's kinda accepted she's like that by that point & is used to starting shit so he never brings it up. not good at allyship & intersectionality & despite loving merrill would side with her clan because she thinks merrill "goes too far". hashtag human privilege (derogatory)

eneris: transfem butch lesbian so you already know some people's brains are exploding at the mere concept. complex relationship with being dalish bc his entire family all turned out to be mages except him, he convinced himself he was simply not good enough to be gifted magic which led to a lot of self isolation making him feel alienated from his peers, & when the ritual failed & he received magical abilities he panicked because oh no magic in HIS hands can only go WRONG. ends up making a lot of hasty decisions on impulse & tends to speak about magic as a sort of evil force that only few people should be allowed to wield which obviously sours his relationship with bellara neve & emmrich. note that he's romancing neve. also he's just very cowardly & has gotten this far as a warden solely bc he has surprisingly good instincts for someone who's shaking like a leaf all the time. feels very haunted by the archdemon's voice. overall i think people would get mad at me for 1. how i write him 2. giving him he/him pronouns 3. just everything

passerine: i'm a piece of shit!! <- said by him. reaaal bad bpd representation bc he doesn't deal with his symptoms like he's been to therapy (bc he fucking hasn't). tevinter elf so he has very fucking strong opinions on minrathous & part of him chose treviso to let the people of minrathous eat shit for what they've done to him & other elves. lashes out at his boyfriends who notably are never the people who've upset him hashtag toxic (they can deal with him just fine). keeps putting himself in self-sacrificial situations & has a weird dynamic with solas where at times he feels he can only trust him which is obviously not good for him. this could be considered cheating depending on how you see it. & of course he's gnc & trans

shamir: also gnc & trans. system both in the normal way & in the fantasy way which is BAD & WRONG! will do whatever it takes to keep his party alive. known blood magic user (but only started doing it after having his tranquility reversed! he was not made tranquil bc of blood magic. he was not a maleficar yet at the time) coupled with spirit healer which is a bit funny. loves his boyfriend, his boyfriend & him's joint babygirl, & also has a situationship polycule on the side (his boyfriend is invited). extremely emotionally unstable which is also bad mental illness rep, only stable when possessed by ghosts. made his boyfriend fuck his best friend so neither of them would have to die & then had the gall of being jealous of his best friend for having a kid (cmonnn at least let me see him!! morrigannnn i want to see himmmmmmmm). unabashedly anti-circle. starts fights with templars out of nowhere. he has warden immunity

elian is easily my worst rep character solely for lying for 10+ years about his gender identity because he was trying to keep cullen's affection for him from origins to inquisition. CULLEN

[surrender-souls]

i could fix griffin mr invisible man

[zymurg3]

HELLOOOO 2BHANK HEADCSNONS HEART EMOJI :]

the ideas that have been in my small little brain

even when others are nice to hank he finds it very empty which is why in project nexus he doesn't really connect with others however his relationship with 2bdamned is more than "He's nice to me" its the fact 2bdamned is actually displaying more than words, because he realizes that 2bdamned is doing more than he has to in any capacity. they share a goal of defeating - or atleast subduing - the AAHW. 2bdamned's assistance in providing high level weaponry and teammates should be enough, but he's giving MORE. after hanks first death on a mission after beginning to work with 2bdamned, he finds it strange that 2bdamned is the one to help revive him but that gives them time to spend together. He finds it even more strange that this is his first encounter with another person that includes physical touch but no harm, he doesn't know what to make of that. Eventually its not just when hank dies. It starts happening enough that 2bdamned says he has to come by so often he might as well start living there, but hank takes that as a serious offer and obliges. Both of them are surprised, but it happens anyway.

I think that's the point at which they start to know each other well enough to advance this to a relationship past "We just need to get by" to "I'm doing all these super nice things just as a favor" which are definitely not just favors, they spend more and more time together as a result. Hands lingering over stitched wounds 'just to check one more time', small talk during treatment, i think around that point is when hank opens up to doc a lot more. I like to think they do stuff outside of work or simply "Living" too, having a drink together and such. I think it's obvious they want to keep it "strictly business" but it's been past that point ever since they started living together, and WELL past ever since they started becoming more ... casual to each other.

I don't truly know to what extent hank feels for 2bdamned, but I think he kind of struggles with the fact he hasn't killed him yet when there's reasons he COULD and he SHOULD, but i supposed it's something in the back of his mind that he can when it comes to that point. The better question is why hasn't it? How did it get to THIS point where it's become past the work? Why would he do something like be open to someone like HIM? Why hasn't he done anything about it?

2bdamned's own emotions are pretty clear to him but he's in denial saying it's about the research or the practicality or some other bullshit not willing to admit its spending more resources than it's worth to keep the fucker alive, especially if hank doesn't exactly need 2bdamned's talents to revive himself. It's needless use of vital things like giving up privacy to live with the Scariest Guy In All Of Nevada or using reviving when Hank doesn't even need any of the fancy tech in the first place to be revived. It's the same question of "How's it come to this?"

i need them to be a little more fucked up emotionally than just snuggle buddies at movie night. i mentioned this elsewhere but their relationship is kind of like. They both think theyre the guy taking care of the cat, but they're both the cat. sorry less of a headcanons list and more a dump of some headcanon emotional garbage but here's some stuff i think theyd do and be gay about

drinking together (mentioned) and getting a bit more closer emotionally, both of them talk about their jobs and what they do what they do but i also think doc would mention something about being ex-aahw and being like "FUCK!!NO HE'LL HATE ME NOW!!" and hanks like "AHHAHAHA see it's just better to hang with me" and at that point they became besties (CODE FOR hot gay lovers)

also after that doc just begins complaining so so much about the AAHW especially the working conditions

THREE WORDS. HOMO!! EROTIC!! SURGERY!!! you all know it by now yes the "oh so you're in my guts. okay. buy me dinner first" but like you know. i think people should focus more on the touching aspect and i never really see it enough... gimme some tracing over the stomach and hank being all fucked up over how this is the only time of the day someone gets to hold him without it following his head being bashed in. I do think it's a little funny thinking about this though, i think 2bdamned definitely forgets all the time he's working with a LIVING body not a dead one so he just kinda sticks his hand in there sometimes and when hanks like "AUGHTR" he's like oopsie ^_^ forgot

hank tried to kiss doc once after surgery and he had to play it off as being delirious and then stomped out really all mad at himself

they have to sleep in the same bed or it's that doc is sleeping in a fucking chair but the problem is all of his chairs are stools. they HAVE to sleep in the same bed man. there's only one bed trope but contest to see how long they can last before making out. do this in real life with your best friend

also that doc is the one that cooks for both of them and it is kind of shit food but compared to the fact hank cant fucking cook its like a miracle hank gets anything other than Cheese Pizza in his system

you remember that "Pretty Please" note doc wrote to hank to tell him to Pretty Please Destroy The Only City In Our Fucking World i think he talks really jokingly to hank, but doesnt do it because hank doesn't really pick up on it being a joke. usually does try to remain serious and normal for most conversations

if i think of any more i'll psot them later but it is 12:30 am !!! i like them a lot. i like them a lot

[ygio]

i just think it would be extremely funny if tkb treated it like the jokers scars thing.

like - the first time it happens, its not exactly on purpose.

tkb is freshly back, after getting that redemption he deserved, and is working through his relationships with the people who knew him as someone different, someone angrier and more cruel. theyre getting to know the real him now, and its going well, or at least well enough. its a start.

but then at one point malik offhandedly asks him about how he got those cuts on his face, and a part of tkb - probably the same part that deeply, profoundly fears vulnerability - finds himself rendered unable to answer such a personal question. so, in the split-second that takes him to open his mouth, his brain has processed this information and quickly came up with the solution for the problem, called Lie Like A Dog.

“i was fishing,” he says, completely straight faced. “in the nile. and a shark bit me.”

“youre fucking with me,” malik tells him, with the expression of someone who is clearly unsure if the other is actually fucking with him.

“no, seriously. i leaned into the water too far and it just swooped out of water and went for my face. it was very scary.”

malik snorts, unimpressed. “okay, youre definitely fucking with me.”

“well yeah of course i am,” tkb retorts, shit eating grin and all.

.

the next time, its with ryou bakura. he was careless and got badly cut while carving one of his figurines, and tkb is naturally there to help him out. he knows how to patch up wounds, after all - he did that to himself all the time.

“even the one on your face?” bakura asks.

“yeah,” tkb responds automatically, touching his cheek. “it was pretty bad, but i got lucky.”

bakura raises his eyebrows, a natural curiosity kicking in. “really? what happened?”

and tkb wants to tell him, he really does, but that knee-jerk reaction shows its face again, too ingrained in him to be ignored.

“well, it was lucky i had all the supplies on hand,” he says, bullshitting like he made a career of it (which, really, at one point he did). “i was having an affair with a seamstress, and her husband found out, came at me while she was sucking my dick. but there were all these needles and threads around, so i stole some and used them for stitches.”

“stop lying.” bakura tells him, not even a little bit amused.

“im not!” tkb goes back to messing with bakuras wound, a little too forcefully. bakura doesnt even wince as he continues, voice flat.

“you werent fucking a seamstress, youre gay.”

.

and then eventually, it becomes a thing. whenever someone asks (or if they dont ask, and tkb is feeling like messing with someone in particular), they get a new, different version of How He Got These Scars.

he fell down a pyramid.

made out with an ancient lawnmower.

its a tattoo, actually - one of those that get carved into your body, like what malik has but voluntary, and the symbol means Your Mom.

etc.

and eventually, he becomes more comfortable with these people in his life - actually comfortable, enough to consider them close. for the first time in three thousand years, first time since he was a terrified five year old, hiding as he watched everyone he loved die, he has something like a family. the thought is dizzying.

he could tell them, he thinks at some point, and the realization doesnt fill him with dread. he could share this piece of information with his friends the same way he could share anything else, and nothing would change, their treatment of him wouldnt change.

being known would not make him any less safe.

but even as he becomes aware of this, he still cant stop lying about this, can he? its way too funny to just tell the truth at this point. hes committed to the bit.

[mossterious]

Season 3 thoughts!!! Compiled as I watch kinda:

Time skip???

This season is giving me so much anxiety for like no reason btw it’s just freaking me out

Uther is so funny he sucks as a human, and yet he DOES care about his kids BUT! only in the worst possible ways

I kept joking that Morgana turned evil in s3 cuz I didn’t actually know WHEN she turned evil. But uh. No. I was correct.

Also they really were like in s3 Arthur gets to be a bitch again. And honestly good for him.

The goblin episode was fucking panic inducing oh my god

GWAINE GWAINE GWAINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

The thing where Merlin goes around looking like an injured deer only for him to say “look behind you :)” and then Arthur’s there to beat them up is so adorable. I love them.

I still don’t know how I feel about Morgause

Cenred being played by Lucifer is such a brain fuck (this also led to a long deep dive into actors on ouat cuz i used to watch that lol)

Gwen and Arthur are so cute actually

I am starting to have fanfic ideas but not like THAT many. Yet. And none that I’ve written down.

“I AM SUPPOSED TO BE DOING THIS ALONE” is finally here!!! Yay!

A good amount of clips I’ve seen are also from s3 but a far larger amount are from s2 I think

Oh btw Manticore IS SOOOOOO UGLY. SO UGLY. I HATE IT.

I really love Gwen and Arthur the show makes it work actually

OLD MERLIN OLD MERLIN OLD MERLINNNNNNNNNN

And Arthur immediately being like “who do I know this man”. God I love them.

My mother JUST learned Leon’s name. In season three. AND. Now she won’t stop making jokes about Leon’s the furniture company??? HELP ME.

… i talked to my brother about Gwaine too much and he made me show him the ‘Gwaine being Gwaine’ compilation that I watched way too much in 9th grade

Also we coined the term ‘Gwaine’s GWood’. For reasons. (This is actually about him using his pecs to sell stuff at his carpentry business) (we’re normal)

Oh wait one thing we’ve also been doing this season is pointing out Morgana’s patented “oh I’m secretly so evil” smile. It happens A Lot. Also related is Morgana’s ‘oh I’m so evil’ lipstick. S3 hit and they were like ‘how do we make her look evil?’ ‘Uhhhh period inaccurate red lipstick?’

FULLY EVIL MORGANA FOR THE WINNNNNNNN. However it means she can’t secret evil smile anymore cuz now she’s just regular evil smiling all the time

Sidenote I think I’ve been watching too much Merlin… was watching a movie (AN ANIMATED MOVIE) and someone dropped a FLASHLIGHT, and my first thought was “… why isn’t it catching anything on fire?” MAYBE BECAUSE IT ISNT A TORCH, BRAIN, ITS A FLASHLIGHT!!! So uh. Idk what to feel about that.

I haven’t talked about Morgause yet for some reason. I like her (because I am a SUCKER for sisters) but I also feel like she falls a lil flat. She has three emotions: Evil, Sister!, and Hair Flip. I wanna write her to give her some depthhh

Other writing ideas include evil! Merlin, Merlin saying he has magic but Arthur thinking he’s saying he’s gay, and just general poly fluff??? But Morgause pov seems so tasty rn

LANCE!!! AND PERCIVAL!!! AND PERCIVAL’S ARMS (they’re a different character btw)!!! I LOVE THE KNIGHTSSSSS!!!

Also Excalibur is so pretty this must be said. What a beautiful sword. I would marry that sword.

Gwen’s little fur thingy in her ‘oh no Camelot is taken over’ outfit is SO UGLY BTW. LOOKS LIKE SHE PUT AN IKEA RUG ON HER SHOULDER. I’m trying not to judge the outfits in this show BUT WHAT IS THATTTTTTT.

Also while I’m judging outfits they reused this one Morgana dress like 8 times in s3 alone. The weird silvery gold one. Just like- why? She has other dresses!!! Let her wear them!!!

However I am very much am pro Gwaine only having one shirt. It’s so funny. He is too busy drinking and getting yeeted around to buy a second shirt. I love him.

THE TABLE! WE HAVE THE TABLE! TABLE ACQUIRED!!!

THEYRE GETTING KNIGHTED WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! GET FUCKED CLASSISM!!!

I really like the knights :))

Lance and Merlin are adorable together actually. Look at them. Sweeties.

I hope Gwaine gets to do his ‘oops I stole your sword’ thing even when there’s a lot more fighters to choreograph now. I love his unique fighting style and if he loses it now that there’s more knights I will be SAD.

Anyway I love this show I would say it has burrowed deep inside of me but tbh it was ALREADY THERE BABYYY. When I say it’s wild it took me this long to actually watch it, I mean it. I was watching compilations of it every single day, and reading so much fic, and yet never actually watched the show??? But now I have babyyy. God I love it tho. I can’t believe I’m onto s4 wtf???

I’m finally watching Merlin!!! I cannot tell you why I never have before.

[transfemlogan]

Made my friend ( @evilneo ) guess Sanders Sides characters (+ Emile Picani & Remy/Sleep)! If it isn't obvious, I am "All Aboard" with the pokemon icon & ai is JohnWickLover1994.

(Note: my friend refers to Remus as a degoratory term ["fruit"] once)

Image descriptions are under cut (sorry, they're very long I thought it'd be best to put it under cut).

[ID: all images are screenshots of a discord conversation between user 'All Aboard! 🚄' and 'JohnWickLover1994'. User 'All Aboard! 🚄' is struggling to type and often misspells words.

Image 1: All Aboard! 🚄: here is the first one. (Image of Patton Sanders from Sanders Sides) Tell me who he is...

JohnWickLover1994: Oh uhm... Logan nerd trait.

All Aboard: NERD TRAIT

JohnWick: why is he dressed like that. Hang on one sec. (All caps) He dresses like the guy from that one dating sim (end caps) with the dilfs. Ok so. Logan. Nerd trait of uh logic. Or being a dweeb or whatever. (A later message) (all caps) the first one you showed me. Is he morality. (End caps)

All Aboard: (all caps) I'm not answering until the end (end caps)

JohnWick: (all caps) sorry off topic from this fruit (end caps) (edited onto the screenshot is the text "remus" underneath the word fruit.)

All Aboard: (caps) help (end caps)

JohnWick: (caps) he just looks like a goody two shoes bitch (end caps)

Image 2: All Aboard: whos this? (Image of Logan Sanders from Sanders Aides)

JohnWick: (caps) no that one is logic right? Brain badge! (End caps)

All Aboard: they're all logic /joke ok so then whats his name?

JohnWick: (caps) ok so (end caps) logan 2.

All Aboard: (keysmash) they're ALL named logan!

JohnWick: (caps) yeah! (End caps) whwhwhwhw... uh. His name that isn't logan. Roman? Is this roman.

All Aboard: sure! Next one.

John Wick: (caps) im wrong aren't i </3 (End caps)

Image 3: All Aboard: (image of Roman Sanders) whos this

JohnWick: (caps) oh that guy is roman isnt he fuck (end caps) he's got that general roman prick vibes . Idk ... uh um. Confidence? Cockyness? Strategy?

Image 4: All Aboard: (image of Virgil Sanders)

JohnWick: (all caps) is this one virgil

All Aboard: (keysmash) what gave it away

JohnWick: i fell in love with an emo girl~ /lyric

All Aboard: ok whats his trait.

JohnWick: sleep deprivation look at those (caps) eyebags. (End caps) someone give this young man a bed.

All Aboard: on it boss! Tucking him in rn

JohnWick: uh hm. Idk. Anxiety? Mental illness ambiguous.

Image 5: All Aboard: (2 images of Janus Sanders) he has a snake face! ^_^

JohnWick: (all caps) oh um. Janus. Deceit?

All Aboard: (all caps) fuck how do you know this one

Image 6 (conversation continued): JohnWick: two sides of his face to two faces to synonym for deceitful. Snake themed to calling someone a snake means theyre a deceitful person. Janus also has two faced associations i think?

All Aboard: fuck. I should have just let you seen one part of his face... /joke

JohnWick: bill cipher cosplayer bitch. Smacking his bowler hat off his head get some (caps) style man. (End caps) I could dress him better I think . If he was my househusband.

Image 7: WHO is this guy and his trait. (Image of Remus Sanders)

JohnWick: now this dude. Hm. Oh! Remus?

All Aboard: (caps) how'd you know?

JohnWick: I know Roman and Remus are twins and hes like. as flamboyant as the other guy in the opposite direction

All Aboard: (keysmash) this is true.

JohnWick: also the other guy was red+white and hes green+black so thats like opposites. Also trait is gay homo crimes.

Image 8: All Aboard: he is from multiple vines (image of Sleep from Thomas Sanders' short videos) and he represents something. It's like... Thomas does skits, I guess. He wears a thing that says what he is supposed to represent so I scribbled it out. He does not have a canon name, but everyone calls him a name and even Thomas does it sometimes. I am pretty sure.

JohnWick: idk. Uh. Calling him David.

All Aboard: (caps) david. (End caps) Do u want 2 guess what he represents. What. David. Represents

JohnWick: Instagram brand millennial cisgay who every queer person doesn't like

Image 8: All Aboard: (image of Emile Picani from Cartoon Therapy) Who is this. He has a first and last name, but no trait. He has a job you can guess his job.

JohnWick: Leslie Greenham and he's a librarian. He looks like a Leslie Greenham tbh (later message) (all caps) is he not a librarian?

All Aboard: (all caps) its great. I love it. No hes not a librarian (keysmash)

JohnWick: there's a book behind him though!

All Aboard: (keysmash) theres ONE book behind him that makes him a librarian! /joke /teasing /end image description]

[cyberdragoninfinity]

zane for the character ask thing?

YESSSS

favorite thing about them: waaahhhh so much. god i love zane. his character arc is so so good. His dub voice is I think my single favorite dub voice so far ( a high honor; I love a lot of the dub voices!!), I love how he can go from mumbling to a snarling roar in an instant. I love his Hell Kaiser design, I love the way the show storytells through his deck and how he plays it. He's also in my Single Favorite GX Duel so I think that counts as a Favorite Thing.

least favorite thing about them: genuinely trying to think about. what my least favorite thing about him is. hm. I do adore dub zane but it's a shame a lot of his relationship with respect re: dueling and himself and others got cut in order to play up a little bit of a "edgy mid-2000's tough guy bully older brother" characterization with him in the dub; the respect thing is such an important part of his character and it sucks to lose that!!

favorite line: sorry theyre all dub lines but "CYBER END DRAGON.... IT'S BEEN REAL" *EXPLOSION* still makes me go absolutely insane and "he's got one" re: jaden desperately telling him that he cant go, that syrus needs a big brother, literally makes me start crying. Also special shoutout to the fact that the dub specifically had zane tell syrus he loves him on two separate occasions!!!! That's so dear to me. Sub wise I do also love "I don't need an assistant" re: yubel being like 'i'll help you down on your way to hell.' he just goes hard.

brOTP: his bond with syrus is my single favorite yugioh siblings dynamic and every time i think about them im just like ;__; aauuaaghhhwwaahhhh......could talk about them. for ages. I also love his friendship with Jaden and Alexis!!! Zane Truesdale has Three Whole Little Siblings!!!!!!!!! I know and see the truth!!!!!

OTP: you know i gotta be on that idolship babeeeyyy!!! I did not expect a gx ship to weasel into my brain but he and Atticus just make me so soft. Why don't you come with me into the light and maybe you'll fucking calm down. love CAN bloom between a NIN fan and a Jimmy Buffett fan.

nOTP: never could vibe much with zane/jaden as a ship????? idk. thats his little brother to me. also again if you ship him with syrus im biting you. and im biting you. and im biting you. and im killing you.

random headcanon: zane alan truesdale my autistic aromantic gay nonbinary competitive pokemon player........... he is transneutral to me. his ideal gender is a 2 1/2 by 2 1/2 by 2 1/2 floating steel cube with the hell kaiser jacket on it. He listens to Tool. He'd go to raves and stand again the wall with his arms crossed. His special interest as a small child was printers. He loves old computers. His favorite Pokemon is Dialga. i could go on.

unpopular opinion: HE'S NOT. EVIL?!?!?! PEOPLE ALWAYS ARE LIKE "my sexy evil husbando >:3" WITH HELL KAISER AND IT'S LIKE. HES NOT EVEN EVIL!!!! HES JUST MENTALLY ILL!!!! HES HAVING A MANIC EPISODE SOMEONE HELP HIM. also. his 'death' is better in the dub than in the sub imo (it's the telling sy he loves him. for me.) <3

song i associate with them: Heel Turn 2 by tmg is the Zane Song Ever for me but also Bleed Out off their latest album.... "I will go down punching, but I will go down/ and my corner men won't bring me back around...."

favorite picture of them: sorry it's not an in-show screenshot but it's always going to be this pic from tag force

i cannot fucking believe this is a real picture of ryozane marufujitruesdale from a Real PSP Game that Really came out and that you can play but it IS. emulate Tag Force 3. my final message.

[kilomxtxrs]

idk nightcrawler very well, can u tell me a lill more abt him?

!!!!!!! Okay!!

100% recommend watching the xmen movies, theyre so good. Incredible found family.

Im definitely going to get things wrong because i havent read any xmen comics so i only know little things here and there but here's the basics.

Nightcrawler is a mutant called Kurt Wagner. His birth and what happened to him varies but the general idea is that he is the son of Mystique (Raven Darkholme). She didnt want a baby so she tried to kill him. She threw him off a cliff but Kurt survived. Kurt spent his childhood in a circus in Germany. Originally he grew up quite happily in the circus, being very flexible and acrobatic. However once the circus was bought by another company, he was treated much worse. They insisted Kurt was placed in the 'Freak show' and even kept him in cages. Kurts blue skin, elf-like ears, yellow eyes and long tail were all there from birth however his teleportation powers only kicked in at puberty like most mutations. Kurt was drugged in the circus to prevent him escaping but eventually he did manage to teleport away.

This is where I'll move towards the movie lore because like i said, i dont know much about comics. :]

In the movies, more so apocalypse, Kurt never actually escaped the circus but instead he was sold to mutant cage fighting where he ended up fighting Archangel / Angel (Warren Worthington). He was rescued by Mystique and brought to the X-Mansion where he now lives and works with the xmen.

Some headcanons i have about him:

I could not tell you for the life of me what those little demon Bamf things are. I know theyre the bamfs but i cant explain them. So to make life easier i like to headcanon that Kurt just has a little plushie or two of himself that he absolutely adores.

His tail swishes when hes happy so he has to hold onto it to make sure he doesnt hit anyone because his tail has a mind of its own and he knocks so.. so many things over with it.

When hes standing next to (insert whoever you ship him with here - personally i ship him with Wolverine), kurt will wrap his tail around their leg comfortably to keep himself close.

Kurt had already left school by the time he got to the mansion. He did a few important classes like english and maths but he mostly now just helps teach/watch the younger kids. He likes helping Ororo (Storm) with her classes.

Its fun trying to think of mutations for all of the kids. Like- have you ever watched Sky High (2005)? Highschool au essentially. But imagine a kid whos mutation is just- really sharp teeth. Poor Kurt trying and failing to keep a class of loud and wild kids calm and then getting his tail bitten by the bitey child. He cries. Someone help him.

Im halfway through reading a fic ('How to bang an X-man' by Laughing_Screaming on AO3 *nsfw warning*) and in it Kurt really likes snails. He helps Ororo with gardening and she ends up gifting him 3 pet snails and i think thats adorable.

ALSO IN THE FIC, Kurt sleeps in a hammock rather than a bed because he likes being up high and curling up in it - it reminds him of when he was living on the road with the circus. Its adorable.

Not a headcanon, more of a fact, Kurt is quite religious and proud to be catholic. *tw SH* In the movies he has symbols and patterns all over his body which are self inflicted - 'one for every sin'. Whereas in the comics, Kurt is much more fuzzy and fluffy - having fur rather than just blue skin. People describe his skin to be almost velvety? Or like a peach? And whilst that makes my autistic brain want to gag, it is a cool detail.

Also not a headcanon but Kurt is a nerd. He has an interest in everything to do with pirates. His weapon of choice is a cutlass. Ive never watched it and i dont plan to but he'd probably enjoy that gay pirate show everyone likes at the moment. (OFMD)